Praise God from whom all blessings flow

I had been given a heavy blow the other day and it got me side tracked, slightly. Satan hits us where it can really hurt, and if there is someone who you get support from who helps you, then that relationship makes a perfect target. It hurt, it still hurts, but my troubles have never stopped God’s faithfulness. This is why we need to be surrendered, Satan will try us like he tried Job if God allows him, and God will allow hardships to test us. He will test if our love is true, but even more he shakes us to wake us up. His word promises to shake the earth (us) so that anything that is not of him will be destroyed.

And these words, “yet once more,” signifieth the removing of those things which can be shaken, such as things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain

Hebrews 12:27

So the final product should make us glad because our trials are like the refiners fire 🔥. If it ain’t the Lord, then it isn’t worth my time or devotion. That is why the Lord allows it.

Yet we praise God despite the hurt. We praise him because what he has is enough. We can count the blessings he has given to us. He has forgiven us. He has revealed himself to us. What I truly value about him is that people come and people go but the Lord always remains faithful,yes I Praise him in the deepest valley. I thank him in the desert. I trust him amidst the storm.

Not my will be done but yours be done father. Why so downcast, oh my soul, why grieve and worry and why be afraid. Someone else might abandon you but I will still provide for you. Hunger for my righteousness and I will make you warm. 1000 reasons to praise and believe in the goodness of God amidst the storm.

Feeling a lot of peace after some deliverance

Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

Psalm 43:5

I will yet praise him for sure, I’m in love with you my savior and my God 🙌

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Updates: love, marriage, and saying goodbye

Its been so long since I’ve visited this site that it seems to be a ripe time to check in. I’ve had many changes over this past year. I’ve met and married God’s gift to me. The very week that we went on our honeymoon I found out that my mom had liver failure and metastatic cancer and that she was going to die. Right after I returned from my honeymoon I flew back home to my home state to say goodbye to my mom. I got to spend 3 days with her, and on the third day as I was on my flight back home she passed away. I’m still heart broken. She was only 60 years old. Up until she died I always felt unloved and rejected by her, but now I regret not appreciating the love I did receive from her, even when it wasn’t much. I should have tried to talk to her more. I should have visited More. But I am grateful that I got to see her in her last days, I got to watch movies with her and talk about our faith. I got to hear her thoughts about dying and her wishes. I got to kiss her and say I love you. I wish I had more, but I’m blessed to have the Lord’s peace and assurance that she is in heaven and I still get to experience her from time to time. I appreciate the lasting changes her untimely death made on my heart. I’m happy that I had a change in how I see life and how I have reconnected with my family, it has been so long. It had been a slight challenge to our new marriage but its nothing we can’t handle. God gave me a good one. I’m so glad that God helped me learn how to rely on him because no one can ever take the place of the lord. A spouse is nice, companionship is nice. It is not good for man to be alone, yet when God is present we are never alone. So these experiences have began a new book in my life, one that is now colored by love, strength in God, church, family, the lbs coming home, eternity and grief. There is so much to tell about. It is as if my story has just begun. My mom passed away April 19th, 2021. I was married April 3rd, 2021. My book was finalized and went to the market the day before my mom passed away, or at least that is when I first noticed it was on the market. My mom never got to read it though I was able to give her my original copy, but that doesn’t matter now because she already knows what is in it, and what is to come. Maybe she’ll help me with my next one.

The verse that God gave me concerning my mom’s salvation
My love and I
My book listing Amazon, now available on Kindle


Do Not Have To Compete

I do not have to compete for your love. You have made me valuable as I am and you are faithful. How many times had I felt insecure in the past when I had a straying lover, making me feel I had to be better than who I am? I am grateful for the lessons that you have given me Lord that in you, there is not competition. No other lover is going to take away my standing with you, and no matter how haughty a cat may be who shows up and thinks they are going to take the show, there is no need for me to be greedy. Another can have the lime light, it does not threaten my standing with you. If I have a lover who chooses someone better, I still have no room to fear, because in you there is no need to compete. I am no less valuable to you. You still love me the same. When we understand that there is no competition for our place in the kingdom of God, then we can allow another person’s light to shine. It is between that person and the Lord their own heart attitude in his kingdom, as for me I trust the ultimate judge who is more than able to discern the difference between right and wrong. I have experienced many a friendship that turned into a competition in which they tried to outshine me. It is unfortunate that a friend would do that to another but I still stand secure, there is no need to compete before the perfect judge who still loves me perfectly no matter what. I don’t know how many times I have preferred to be a lone ranger so that I didn’t have to deal with people trying to compete with me and snuff out my light so that theirs could shine brighter. At times a person’s light will shine brighter, and they will have greater honor. May I still stand secure knowing that your love Lord is all that matters. Let me respond in love and not be subject to the fiery darts that Satan wants to throw in such an advantage point. May I always trust you Lord Jesus my firm rock. If I error may I be corrected. If I need to do better than let me learn. Keep me secure in your love is all that really matters for I will trust that in due time you will honor each of us according to what you see is right. You will not let your loved one see decay or deliver him to the grave. You are a defender of the weak and uphold the case of the fatherless. You will not let your loved ones be put to shame.

I feel the need to go deeper even still and discuss you as a lover. You are such a good and faithful lover. You will not allow others to speak deceit and put down your lover. You do not involve yourself in evil talk about your little ones and will punish and correct those who speak ill against them. You will defend your little ones and protect them from the powers that would rise up against them. We will not be put to shame. You are the good Samaritan who stood up for the beggar who was left abandoned and mocked on the side of the road. The poor men who had no shame and called out to you because they were in need, you ignored the righteous man near you and you came to them and helped them with their needs. You say, “whatever you do to the least of these, you do to me”. You say, “I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink”.. oooh you love the underdog. You protect the lowliest person and you uphold their cause. Let us who think we are better repent so that we can be like you. Let us stoop down off our pedestal as the king of the world came to serve and not be served. This is the type of Lord that we serve, the one that would give a drink of water to a beggar while the rest of the world will say, “stay away from them, they just want to buy boos, they deserve their lot in life, they are just lazy and need a job”, you say, “away from me I never knew you” to the wicked who ignore the fatherless and the lost. You care about the fatherless I thank you for this. Thank you for the poor in the world are really the rich in the kingdom of God, and the foolish things of the world confound the wise. Let us never forget who you are and the lessons you have to teach us. Let us become lowly so not to offend you and have the wisdom to walk in true love always. Amen.