I said goodbye so many times. Now I find my mind still wonders to him. This time I’m reminded as to why I keep saying goodbye. When it is not right, it just is not right, no matter how much we had want it to be right. Be brave enough to say goodbye. God makes all things right. God is always right. Just let him go, and this time, mean it when you say goodbye. God has bigger plans for the both of you. This time, don’t think about what could’ve been, or even what should have been, though what should have been was genuine love. It doesn’t make either of you wrong, it means that you are now growing up. Be brave enough to say goodbye. Saying goodbye doesn’t mean you hate each other, it means that you love each other by doing what is best for the other. People talk of toxic people and toxic love, yet is there one person who is truly better than another? We all have our flaws and failures, we all screw up in one way or another. It means that you have different callings, and gifts that are unique to your own life and if you have a conflict of interest, you will always be at odds. Take your time and chose right before you say I do. Chose to love each other and if you cannot give yourself up for the other than allow them to go. Be brave and say goodbye.
This might be a shocker statement to some religious folks out there. Surely someone wouldn’t make assumptions about what I mean without first reading what I have to say. We are told that we now have a righteousness apart from the law, and that is faith in God through Jesus Christ (Romans 3:21). What this means for me is that God is my confidant, if I have a problem or concern about anything I can go to him about it, and he also justifies me. He made the law. Why go to the law when looking for the truth? The written law is in black and white and without personality, it does not think, it is merely words with an open and shut case. It will never be able to mold or bend to allow for your weakness. It is not able to think for you. It does not have feelings for you. God, on the other hand has feelings. If you had an issue with being able to keep a law, like if you had a debt you owed, and you weren’t able to pay it, and you were able to go to the judge who issued the law in the first place, without fear because he was a loving and merciful man, wouldn’t you rather do it, or just let the law judge you? This is the beauty of being able to approach the throne of grace, is that unlike the written law, the one who sits on the throne, the law maker is able to adjust it for you, or show you how to fulfill it with added grace. God is not out to punish us. He is not a tyrant. He wants us to approach him. He wants us to fulfill the law in spirit and in truth, not for the sake of the cold, unfeeling words of the law, but rather for the sake of truth and righteousness. Therefore, it is not the law that I bow my knee to, but it is only God who I serve. The law is a boundary keeper. The law is a wall set along the path of righteousness to keep us on the right path, but the law is not in charge, rather God is. How sad to think that so many christian, myself included, have believed that the law itself was God. That the law which is unforgiving and relentless would be our final judge, when this whole time they were given provision to enter into God’s throne room of grace to help them along the way, the maker of the law. When a person is struggling at their job, for whatever reason, maybe they are having personal problems at home, would they need to fear if they were best friends with an understanding boss who is patient and merciful? Some Christians see that being chummy with the boss and taking advantage of that privilege is simply just not holy, and they set up their own laws and walls for others to follow, but to what advantage? This is still an attempt to find justification outside of the sacrifice of Jesus’s life, all else is rubbish and should be counted as loss. Just admit it, you are not ever going to truly measure up. Only daddy can lead the way. Only he can justify. God is God.
Isaiah 45:2 KJV
“I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron”
Many people associate prospering with having stable finances, or with having loved ones all around them. Though these things can be called prosperity, they are not the same thing as soul prospering. A soul may prosper whether the person is rich or poor. A soul may prosper whether they are loved by many or alone. Soul prospering has nothing to do with our circumstances, or what we have or not have. Though every human being would love to have these types of prosperity, it was not lasting. If your soul prospers based on what is happening around you, then what happens to your soul if circumstances change? Abraham was promised many descendants, yet before he had died he only had two living sons. Yet, he still prospered. Soul prospering comes from the inside out and is based on faith. It is rooted in what God says about you, and what he promises you. Your circumstances can look bleak while someone who isn’t Godly seems to have much prosperity, but as I mentioned, circumstances can change. Even if they never change, one can still have soul prosperity. When a person’s soul prospers, then they have no fear, and they have much joy and peace. It is God’s will that we all prosper, even as our soul prospers. The only way to gain true soul prosperity is to be connected to God, and then the life blood of Jesus flows through our veins giving prosperity to everything. It assures you that you are accepted, loved, and adored. It assures you that God cares about every single thing that concerns you and that he is for you and not against you. It takes all your insecurities away. It changes us from the inside out, where we are free to be ourselves. We can now be naked and unashamed. God wipes all of our tears away. We are known, we are celebrated, and we know without a shadow of a doubt that that will never change. We have a future, and we have a hope, even if it is only for eternity where we will never endure sadness again. Thank you Lord for soul prosperity. Thank you Jesus for dying so that we can live.
Psalm 16:9 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure”
“Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you: Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:” 1 Peter 4:12-13 KJV
There are the promises of God that we receive from him personally that excite us, and then there is the time of testing. What we often don’t realize is that as we endure trials of many kinds, we are shaped and molded into the person we need to be in order to be ready to receive the promise that God intends to give us. When we consider the Israelites who wandered in the desert for forty years after being delivered from captivity, we can understand that the minor trials that they had endured while on their journey to the promised land would had prepared their faith for the giants that they would have faced. The truth is that there might always be giants to deal with, and there may always be challenges, but we won’t overcome unless our faith is in Jesus. Do not be surprised at your trial, if you are waiting for God to bless your marriage, yet you and your spouse can barely hold it together, then consider that if you two hold onto God and the faith he gives you in the dry desert place, then your marriage will reap a harvest once you enter into the promised land of milk and honey. If you have an unfair boss and you seek God while working for him, then when you enter into the promised land, you will have the strength of faith to endure an even bigger challenge. It is the testing of our faith that truly proves our faith. What is this faith anyways? It is having faith in God, and not looking to anything else as our refuge. God, shake our faith.
Lately as I go about my day, getting ready to take on a task that I had planned for God’s glory, he is telling me to be still. “But God, this is important”, I find my mind, independent of myself telling him. He says, “if I told you to be still, then who is going to come against you or what harm will occur if you are still”. “Oh, yeah that’s a great point”, I think to myself. Why do we as Christians take on so many tasks in order to fulfill God’s given project, yet leave out God? Who are we doing it for anyways? If God tells me to move, then I can pray for his strength and grace to move if my flesh resists and by his power I can get it done. Yet, being still seems so unproductive, yet if God says to be still, then he knows best, so we should be still. I have not perfected this art of being still, but by his grace I am getting more experienced at stopping what I was about to start doing, and rest in stillness instead. Thank you Lord for the gift of stillness that you have led me to. Thank you for not forsaking me when I do fail to be still. Please help me learn how to be still even more. Some of the tasks we engage ourselves in are not really as beneficial as we think they will be. Some tasks are still an attempt to be near God. Yet the only thing that has proven to truly draw us so close to God is to seek him in prayer with an earnest heart, and to have faith.
I have noticed something that occurs within me every time I get close to someone for a relationship. I get scared. There is this subconscious thing that occurs in which I become hyper vigilant and I start looking for everything wrong with them. What happened to the days in which I just enjoyed a relationship? When I didn’t question their words when they said “I love you”? I mean, I enjoy those words for a moment, but later my guard is up and is questioning it. We are certainly supposed to guard our hearts, and this is what the guard is doing, but what happens when that guard won’t let you live and enjoy a relationship? Do we wait for perfect? What happens when we discover that no one is perfect? I have an off and on again relationship in which I just cannot let my guard down in. Thanks to God’s grace, he has shown me the real issue. You see, I can see green grass in other people’s yards, yet the minute that grass becomes my yard I get out the magnifying glass and look for dry spots. When we look for dry spots, our lawn doesn’t seem so satisfying any longer. The issue is that I have my guard up and it is time to let the guard take a break so that I can enjoy my relationship. This is also true in our relationship with God. We can either hear his voice and be satisfied with it, or we can keep searching for the answers in every flower pot and vessel that comes along. If we just remember what God said, and remind ourselves of this, then we can rest from searching. The answer is already with us. The Israelites questioned God repeatedly after he delivered them from captivity. After they left Egypt, they just did not understand how to handle freedom. God said that they tested him and tested him even though he constantly worked to prove himself to them, finally he had enough and promised they would not inherit the land he intended to give them. He called their hearts hard and unbelieving. That is really what this all amounts to, belief or unbelief. Do I believe what God has told me? Do I accept that no relationship is perfect and stop being so nit picky? Do I trust God with my life? Do I believe? I am so grateful that God is patient with me. I am so grateful for his mercy. Without it I would have not hope. Love is long suffering and all enduring. We put our guards up because before God, we were at the mercy of a tyrant called Satan. Now if God has delivered us from evil, and is leading us to our land that will bless us, won’t he take care of every need that we have? No guard is needed when we have Jesus. He is able to lead the way out of the desert. I believe.
God is moving mountains in my life. Many challenges that were burdening me, he is moving them away. He had told me recently that he was going to take away all the things that were burdening me. When I start to fret or worry about things, he reminds me that he is going to take my burdens away. He is fighting my battles for me. How quickly my little human brain forgets. Now, when I pray about things, instead of asking him to do things, instead I am led to “be still and know that I am God”. Relying on what he has told us personally, even if we aren’t yet experienced at interpreting his voice or the noise is too loud, we can do this by relying on his promises, it is a form of prayer. It is asserting faith. It is standing on the rock. Another challenge the Lord has been removing is fear about my own ability and worthiness. We simply are not worthy and we are not able. That is the end of the story. It is understanding that he does these things only because he is merciful and his love is enduring. There are times of silence in the desert where we fervently seek him, and then there are times of silence as we sit in the little tuft of grass he had led us to and watch as he moves the mountains and watch the springs fill up with his holy water. Just watching him work while we rest is our gain when we believe. Thank you God for working tirelessly on our behalves. Thank you for moving mountains. Please add hope to the listeners and faith to their healing. It is just a tiny mustard seed of faith that you place in every single human heart, the hearts you have created to be one with yours, which includes every single human life that ever existed, that can move mountains. Let us just rest and celebrate you and act on that tiny seed of faith. Please remove distractions from our sites. You even pierce through the distractions. When you are here Lord, nothing darkens your light. Alleluia My God reigns! Amen.
The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom (Proverbs 9:10). In my spiritual journey I have come to the knowledge of many types of fears. I have had fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of exposure, fear of dying and going to hell- oh but wait, that is not the fear of the Lord. That is called a Spirit of fear and condemnation which is a demon (2 Timothy 1:7). There are all kinds of demonic fears that lead us to anxiety and torment. There are religious spirits that do as we were told not to do in Galatians 3, and that is to attempt to walk out this Christian life style, that first began in faith by the Spirit, now in the flesh (Galatians 3:10-11). That is also rooted in the spirit of fear and condemnation, and it is a righteousness gained by flesh with a “self-righteous” stamp of approval on it. There is a curse that comes to those who try to gain acceptance or admittance into the Kingdom of heaven through keeping the law, because it says that those who are relying on the law for approval are under a curse, and that they must keep the entire law if they are to succeed. This is where the demonic stronghold of fear comes in, that leads to fruits contrary to the fruit of the Holy Spirit, which is joy, peace, and true righteousness. Instead this person produces pride, judgment, and a yo-yo yoke of approval from the Lord because they are only in peace when they are strong in their flesh, all the while the word tells us that it isn’t until we have become weak that we are strong (2 Corinthians 12:10). The truth is that our strength isn’t of us at all, and it has absolutely nothing to do with us. It has been and ever will be only found in God’s mercy and grace, because it was bought by the Christ dying on the cross. Then we have the true fear of the Lord, which in reality isn’t fear at all, making the religious fearful (1 John 4:18). This fear understands that it is free to do whatever it wants, but it knows that the only true way is God’s. That is the fear of the Lord. It doesn’t cause anxiety. It doesn’t torment us with the kingdom of hell dangling before our eyes as our lot the moment we mess us. Rather, it says that I don’t want to displease God. I want to do right by him. He will never force me to do right by him, and I have the responsibility of choice. What will I chose today? It is the understanding that only I can mess things up by making the wrong choice. The consequence being that I might miss out on the promise that was meant to be enjoyed. I don’t want to work and sweat on the land of desert and only gain a thistle. I want to enter into the green land full of milk and honey where I can find rest. That is what the fear of the Lord is. It is one that sees that we only have one life to live, and what we risk is missing out on the best. It is missing out on the opportunity to fellowship with the master of the universe, and to lose my soul in the process. It is trying to gain the world, but losing my soul. Fearing God is the beginning of wisdom. Fearing God means that we truly believe in him and that we act on it. It is our faith that will make us or break us in the end. If we know what is right and at the end of the day do not do it, then by our own conscience we will stand condemned. It is not necessarily God who will do it. We will do it to ourselves. I think the biggest punishment will be seeing the God we turned away from with complete knowledge, and understanding in fullness how bad we failed. It will be our regret. This is the fear of the Lord that is where all wisdom begins.
When we press forward towards the mark to obtain what God has prepared for us, there is a lot of resistance. Not only are we leaving old habit, familiar people and places behind, but there are evil forces that will also try to stop you from moving forward. It is not uncommon for a person who walks away from something to dream about still engaging in it. There is a force that makes you feel as if you are tearing away a part of you. Some Christians have began to identify these experiences as soul ties, teaching that when we embrace something that becomes an idol to us, it becomes tied to our souls. The idea behind a soul tie is that there is a sense of discomfort when we break away, as if we feel like we are being torn apart as we separate. I see this as familiar spirits who want to linger with you and finish their purpose of tormenting you now resisting you pulling away. The moment you get serious about pressing forward into the kingdom of light and start walking away from the darkness, the kingdom of darkness which is ruled by powers and principalities in high places are going to try every tactic to keep you from going. It doesn’t just take will power to start over again, and begin a new way of life. Rather, it takes the power of God and his transforming grace to make this transfer from the Kingdom of darkness to the Kingdom of light happen. I think back to a friend I had when I was growing up who had been part of Satan’s kingdom for awhile just as I had. She had moved in with a man who was a bad man, and into drugs. She was on my nightly prayer list after I had been saved I felt the need to pray for her a lot. It turned out that she made a plan to leave this man and this way of life, for her sake and her son’s, but the night she was going to leave he had hid and waited for her and murdered her. The resistance of the powers of darkness is real, they want us to stay stuck. Anyone who is struggling and trying to rise above and leave old ways behind should understand that this is more than just kicking a habit, rather it is a fight in the spirit. That feeling we have when we try to move on is going to happen. What is important is that we don’t look back. No matter how much that old way of life beckons to us. No matter the remorse in our souls that calls to us. No matter the dreams or the contrary thoughts that trick us into believing that we are still stuck. It truly feels like a mind game to move on, but when you do, don’t look back. Many of us are familiar with Lot’s wife, who when led away from the evil city that was cursed by God and going to be destroyed, she looked back, giving into that part of her soul that was still attached. She heard the voices that said, “but what about this and that thing that you enjoyed”, even though she knew that leaving it was really the best choice, she looked back and was destroyed. I am so grateful that I have not turned into a pillar of salt every time I had looked back, because I would not be here today to write this blog for sure. Yet, the message is clear to me as I am weighing the cost of moving on. When we are told by God loud and clear that it is time to move on, and his angel is guiding us out of the darkness so that we won’t be destroyed, the only way to move forward is to not look back. Keep pressing on.
I know how hard it is to overcome an old habit. What can I say except to keep trying. This is what I tell myself now, even though I fall almost everyday. Why do you keep picking yourself up and doing it again, because you can do this! I say this to myself. You can do it, you want to do it, you won’t ever be content until you do it. Keep getting back up, keep trying. Maybe i need to count all my successes instead of all my failures. I can succeed most of the day, or for a few days, and then I fail once and it seems as if that one failure cancels out all those successes. Just keep trying. You will get it right when you get tired of doing the same old thing every single day. You will get it right when you want it bad enough, and nothing says you want it bad enough more than to keep trying. Just keep trying.