I’m feeling it in the atmosphere, God still restores. I’m about to read the final chapter in my book that is a test copy. Soon enough it will be going to the market and officially published. It is God’s way to bless me with the grace that comes with the chapter he ledme to write. This one is about God’s restoration. Even as venture into this chapter God’s promises to restore me come to my memory. I am also going through the process of seeing many old strong holds flash before me and also troubles that are plaguing my fiance and God reminds me that he is going to bless me. He is going to restore all things to me. This is his promise to me. Not by might, or by power, but by his spirit he will restore. You are so good to me heavenly father.
So many thoughts cross my mind that I would prefer not be there. I waste so much time focusing on things that I ought not to. God loves us so much that he has literally stepped into our homes (no matter how messy or unlovely they are), and has come down to reason with us on our level (even though we are as dumb as sheep), and made a home with us who seek him in truth. This is Love! So even when my mind strays and I have thoughts I wish I hadn’t, and I focus on cares I shouldn’t, and with every mistake I make- God has me covered! Psalms 91:1 explains to us that those who dwell in the shelter of the most high, will rest in the shadow of the almighty. He’s got you covered! You can rest! Have peace! For his love shelters me and makes me complete. I have no want for anything (Psalm 23:1) for the Lord is my Shepherd! He’s got you covered, hallelujah you are so good to us God. Thank you for loving me, my Savior and my Lord! My prince of peace. I will surely sing of your love forever for your love in unending.
I often don’t even know what I’m going to say when I open a new blog. This is the title that keeps coming to my heart, yet I don’t know what to say. He makes all things work for my good. This means that all the little things that we feel ashamed about desiring or maybe it is a personal struggle that really weighs us down, are allowed to be there for God’s purposes. We don’t have to think that we are alone or fear abandonment by God for having these “light and momentary afflictions” because he is the Alpha and Omega, which means that he is ultimately in control of the happenings of our souls and we are not alone. Don’t think that what you go through is so unusual, as a matter of fact it is a common occurrence to many believers, yet many are not at liberty to discuss it. That is also the wonderful thing about shedding light in the darkness, because when the light exposes the darkness, it leaves. It loses its power. When we hide issues and truths that we would rather not be brought to the light, then instead of going away, they grow into a big ugly monster. When the light illuminates what is in the dark, then it becomes small and powerless, and thousands of demons go to flight. Demons cannot stand the light. Their powers are in their lies. As long as we allow them to stay in the shadows then they will pull us down into the their depths of despair. Despair is not of God and cannot continue when in the light. Bring the truth to the light. Amen.
Today I am reflecting on how we are to think of ourselves with sober judgement. We all feel special to some extent, because we are. How can we not be when we were made in God’s image? We are made to reflect God’s glory. Yet, sometimes we only focus on our attributes rather than the bigger picture which is, how the world might view us. As I consider the world’s view of myself, or rather how someone who isn’t biased might view me, I realize that without the vision of God, I look like an ordinary average person. I see my weaknesses and my flaws. I can see the difference between my ideal of myself, and what I am in reality. The truth is that only God can make this unappealing earthen vessel into his master piece.
Also, I realize that only God can help me overcome my every day to day obstacles, the Lord knows I have not been able to do this myself. Only God can justify me. Only God can defend me. Even now it comes to knowledge that all those who would think to form a plot against me, or think evil of me, God is there interceding for me as we speak. Only God knows me as I hope to be, only God is able to truly believe in me. Each person is unique. Each person is without hope, and only God can redeem them. Each person needs God’s mercy, the mercy that only God can provide.
Only God stays near me, even when I fail. I fail all of the time. Only God can love me, even when I am unlovable. Only God can uphold me, and my purpose is for him. Without him I would had already committed suicide years ago, even if I didn’t die, I would be dead already on the inside without him. He truly is the only good being in this life. No, there are good people, lovable, caring souls but no one is perfect, even Jesus said only God is truly good. There just isn’t any purpose in this life, and only God is the reason why I find myself. I was created to know him. I was created to praise him. I was not ever able to be satisfied by anything in this life, except for God. Only God.
“Just relax”, is the advice that a few close friends have been saying to me. How true it is that while we are trying to figure out the solutions to our many problems, that relaxing is really the solution that we seek. We all really just want to rest, yet we think that worrying and rushing will bring us there. Worry never brings rest.
There are many ways to find relaxation though. One way to gain the ability to relax is by way of accomplishment. Sometimes we are stressed because we have something pressing us that we want to accomplish. This is actually a good anxiety in a way because it can be used to motivate us. Sometimes I get chores done only because the anxiety that begins to build up and cause me to feel bad if I don’t. These types of burdens can really weigh us down until we deal with them. When we understand that the only way to bring relaxation under this kind of stress is through accomplishment, then we can seek to figure out how we can overcome. When we have accomplishment, then we can have rest.
What about the times when we are unable to reach accomplishment though? Like, what happens when accomplishing something is beyond our control? Yet, the burden to overcome lingers there and we try to press forward, yet we just don’t have the resources? What then? Many of us encounter such barriers that prevent us from reaching that place of relaxation and rest that we seek. These burdens seem to bring about shame, dishonor, and fear. Sometimes it can lead to anger, frustration, and impatience. Humility, trust, and patience are what the burdens are meant for. Just as God saw that humans could accomplish anything when they worked together as they built the tower of Babel, and he stretched out his mighty hand and frustrated their plans, sometimes he frustrates our plans. The reason being that the trials and testings of the life force us to slow down, otherwise we might spend all of our time and energy building something that really is futile after its all said and down. The Tower of Babel was meant to reach heaven, however all that would had happened is that it would have reached high enough to take their breath away, but they would have never reached heaven no matter how hard they tried. Sometimes it is what we are reaching for that will defeat God’s given purpose for our lives. Maybe it is a God given purpose we are striving for, but God allows us to be slow downed so that we can develop some character as we wait. “It is in the waiting”, God says. It is in the waiting that we get strong and gain necessary perspective.
“You just need to relax”, they say. I have been told this multiple times, yet I keep forgetting and continue to need to be reminded of it again because I keep getting ahead of God. I was given a prophesy years ago by the pastor’s wife, who told me that God would grow me up fast, but to not get ahead of him. Since she had told me this, I have always ran ahead of him. I hate waiting. Yet, running ahead is like racing to get to a red light or stop sign. That stop sign comes whether we expect it or not, whether we like it or accept it, it comes. Racing to come to a stop sign won’t change the pace of our distance, rather it just influences our restfulness. Racing to get anything done is not restful. We must run our race with endurance and assurance that as we do what God has asked us to do, God will bring us to the finish line, that this is not a race of quickness, but it is a race that needs to be finished.
Waiting on God is an art that leads to resting. When we race ahead at high speed, it is because we are afraid we wont finish. When we wait on God, and enter into his rest by not worrying about what we don’t know, and not focus on the finish line so much that we get frustrated and fixated on the reward more than the creator, then we slow down to the speed that will ensure that we will finish. We rest because we have faith and believe that God is in charge and his plans are the best for us. God, thank you for always being patient and reminding us of your truth, and your willingness to repeat yourself over and over again. When we believe and obey, we enter his rest.
I’ve been wondering why I haven’t been able to successfully date someone? I mean I recently had a boyfriend who was far away, we never met in person, but when it comes to dating men nearby I have anxiety. Honestly, I have had anxiety anyways which also made it hard for me to enjoy my long distance relationship. I realize that I have just not been really ready. I know that God will make all things clear, and that he knows this is a topic that concerns me and he cares. Sometimes it is the seeking that gives us the answers we need. Only if we know the questions we seek. I know that God will cause all things to work out for my good. How do I know when its time? I think that I will know it is right when I am not trying to force it. I think I will know it is right when I am not trying to compromise. I think that the reason I can wait, even though I hate waiting, is because I do not need a partner, though God may bless me with one. I need only one, and that is God. Two are better than one, but two is not mandatory, and should not replace our relationship with God. God has made it clear to me that he makes me sufficient for my girls who don’t have their dad. His love for me is also sweeter than that of any man. When we have God, then we have all that we need. I need to complete God’s project that he gave me. I trust him to provide for all of my needs. It is in the waiting he has shown me. Maybe it is when I am certain that I am enough that I will be ready. I don’t know if my self-concept will ever change, but God knows what I need. He knows when I’m ready. Lord, please lead me and enlighten the eyes of my understanding. Amen.
God is a good father. We know this in theory, but do we know it in heart? I love how personal God makes things for me to comprehend. He will do this for anyone who seeks to know him and asks him for help. I rely on him to get through my day, as I am weak and he is my strength, and he makes me strong for sure by comforting me and counseling me. It is his faith. We say with our mouths that God will protect us, but do we believe? We sing his praises in the church chair or pew, but do we then walk away and believe he is going to do evil things to us if we make even the slightest mistake? If we truly believe that he is good as we sing about when we praise him, then why are we afraid? The Lord wants to give you a deep, personal revelation of his love. He is not just good to a few, he is good to all, it is the lack of faith that keeps us from seeing it. Lord, open our eyes. Heal our hearts. Give us rest and peace today. Open our eyes so that we can see you. Give us deep penetration today, not because we deserve it, but because you are good. Here is what he told me, and it is true for us all. He said, if you who are evil (yes, all humans have evil in them aka flesh) know how to do good things for your children…… this means that if we consider the most evil person, even they know how to bless a person… so if we who are naturally evil, know how to do good for our children, then how much more will he, GOD, who made us, and who is naturally good and loving, know how to do good things for his children? God said, “I created good.. who do you think first came up with the idea of surprises and blessing a person’s socks off??” So we can praise him for the good he will do, even though we don’t know what the good thing is yet, just because we know that we will be faithful to give us all good things in the name of Jesus. Amen.
One of my good friends had been saying the same thing over the months, they said, “when our situations settle, everything will fall into place”. I knew exactly what that meant. It means that God has a plan and when all the situations work out, then the pieces that we have been trying to find the proper place for will suddenly fall into place. I have spent so much time trying to force pieces into place, not being content until the puzzle was solved, however being willing to ensure that this occurred even if the final image was bent, torn, and close to the correct size but not right after all. That is called impatience. That is called fear. Fear of not having a completed puzzle, and fear that God will leave me to figure it out on my own. Even though this is something I couldn’t consciously comprehend, that is what was beneath the surface festering, causing me to put together and try to force together pieces of the puzzle that were not meant to fit. This friend also once said to me, “don’t force anything!” That wisdom has never left my mind, and it has since lingered and guided the path that I have been taking since than. So, what will the final outcome be? The truth is that none of know what we will end up being, or what God has in store for us. We couldn’t even fathom or imagine it, the bible tells us this. All we have to do is trust in God. We just need to have a relationship with him, talk to him, and seek him in earnest. Do our best to please him as a wife would do for her husband, a Son for his Father, A daughter for her mother, a husband for his bride, though that is what we are to Jesus. Jesus never got to have a bride. I got to thinking one day that maybe Jesus would have loved a bride. Maybe he would have loved Mary Magdalene or someone else, and maybe that was the need that God intended to satisfy him with and made the church his bride. Maybe that was Jesus secret prize for faithfulness. I am not pretending that that is what the bible said, rather it is just a guess because that is the way God is. He intends on giving us back far more than we could ever expect or give him in return. We are his bride. We are his pride and joy, and our completeness is his eternal joy. That is what is his prize, to see us truly fulfilled. That is what love is. So for this reason we can trust that everything is meant to fall into place for us. It surely will.
God has a plan. When we fret about the direction our life is going, it is because we are not resting in God. Resting means that we trust him. When we make dumb decisions about our finances and relationships, it is because we are trying to drive the car called life, when all along God is the one who directs our paths. He has a plan. Today I have peace as I trust in him. It doesn’t mean that I know what tomorrow will bring, he says that men have not seen what he has planned, but I do know by faith that those are all good plans and that all things will work for my good. Thank you God for holding my life in the palm of your hands and for giving me your light. Please lead me on the path that leads me on paths of righteousness. I am yours.
Many people associate prospering with having stable finances, or with having loved ones all around them. Though these things can be called prosperity, they are not the same thing as soul prospering. A soul may prosper whether the person is rich or poor. A soul may prosper whether they are loved by many or alone. Soul prospering has nothing to do with our circumstances, or what we have or not have. Though every human being would love to have these types of prosperity, it was not lasting. If your soul prospers based on what is happening around you, then what happens to your soul if circumstances change? Abraham was promised many descendants, yet before he had died he only had two living sons. Yet, he still prospered. Soul prospering comes from the inside out and is based on faith. It is rooted in what God says about you, and what he promises you. Your circumstances can look bleak while someone who isn’t Godly seems to have much prosperity, but as I mentioned, circumstances can change. Even if they never change, one can still have soul prosperity. When a person’s soul prospers, then they have no fear, and they have much joy and peace. It is God’s will that we all prosper, even as our soul prospers. The only way to gain true soul prosperity is to be connected to God, and then the life blood of Jesus flows through our veins giving prosperity to everything. It assures you that you are accepted, loved, and adored. It assures you that God cares about every single thing that concerns you and that he is for you and not against you. It takes all your insecurities away. It changes us from the inside out, where we are free to be ourselves. We can now be naked and unashamed. God wipes all of our tears away. We are known, we are celebrated, and we know without a shadow of a doubt that that will never change. We have a future, and we have a hope, even if it is only for eternity where we will never endure sadness again. Thank you Lord for soul prosperity. Thank you Jesus for dying so that we can live.
Psalm 16:9 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure”