God’s Love Is Perfect

God’s love is perfect. He loves us when we don’t deserve it, and because he is so loving, he will justify us when we trespass against him because he came to us first. We love him because he first loved us. His love is perfect. When men and women did not esteem him, and even hated him, he died for them on the cross. He did this even though they would not recognize what he had done. He received no recognition from many for his sacrifice. He didn’t do good to us so that we would love him in return, rather he did good to us because of love. His love is perfect. When we looked to the world to make us whole, and it chewed us up and spit us out, and we cried, wondering who was there, did anyone truly care, he was there and unlike no other he understood because he was alone too while he was being treated like a criminal when he was really innocent, hanging on that cross. God’s love is perfect, and it was manifested in his Son, who died and gave his life for us. Not so that we could ever give him anything in return, but because he truly loved us. His love is still perfect.

Even When It Hurts

I’ve found that some of our most destructive patterns occur in the midst of pain. When we get angry, hurt, offended we become defensive and in an attempt to defend ourselves we can say mean and hurtful things to others. We didn’t mean it that way, we hope they will forgive and understand us. In time they might. Some wounds can take a life time to heal. Yet there is hope. There is a way around the destruction that wants to destroy our friendships, relationships, and our homes. We can obey God even when it hurts. We can seek out his answers to our pains, and be willing to be objective to our pain, rather than offensive while in pain. Take the time to hear the other side. Listen to their pain, understand their sorrow, even when it hurts. In 1 Corinthians chapter 13, what we call the love chapter in the bible, the first descriptive word that is given to define love, is patience. Love is patient. Love does not need absolution right now. Love does not need its own needs met right now. God is the greater judge and he sees all, and he promises that when we sow seeds while we have sorrow, our harvest will be joy. Love bears all things, hopes all things, believes the best. It is patient and kind. It listens. It considers the other person. It puts its own feelings and thoughts aside so it can be the healing salve for another. If that person needs space from you, then pray they will find the care and comfort they seek. Pray they will be protected, well fed, and nourished. Love believes the best in every person. Love conquers all. Love is not self-seeking. It does not count another’s faults. Love, even when it hurts, and we will reap our reward, even if it is only helping another through their trials.

I Never Knew You

Silhouette of a man walking into the light

The word Knew here is related to a person who walks in the light compared to a person walking in the darkness.  The difference between a person who walks in the light verses the darkness is a person who is open, forthcoming and true.  You see, when we are not forthcoming with our answers to ourselves and to God then we become one who is deceived. The word describes a light that is shining in the darkness.  A light is illuminating, it exposes all the things that are hidden by a cover of darkness. When the light is turned on, then we can see what is really in the room. When we can see what is in the room then we can see clearly whether the objects are clean or something useful, or old rubbish that needs to be thrown away.  We can find our belongings, our clothing, the tools that we need to function and live in life. It would be impossible to clean our room of impurities if you cannot see the true cleanliness of an object in the darkness. You could try to cleanse it in the water by touch, and rub it with your hands or a towel and then think it is clean, until you turn on the light and discover that it is not.  The Lord says to you, “look, I know that you have dirty objects in your room, I’m not here to judge but rather to cleanse your room, however I am unable to help you become clean unless you allow me to turn on a light”. Because of our shame we try to hide our dirty objects in the dark, but to make ourselves feel clean we might go into a corner of the room and rub an object with a hand towel and call it good, so that we can ease our conscience and so that the father of lights, who is God the creator who is clean and pure won’t be able to see just how dirty the object is.  The deceptive cleansing can be likened to one who says a quick prayer at bedtime or reads a chapter out of the bible every now and then so that they can feel holy, however they never truly become clean because, they refuse to turn on the light so that they themselves can properly face the dirt in their home and deal with it, although the bible says that we cannot cleanse ourselves sufficiently. It is not our responsibility to cleanse ourselves because God said that he would do that for us, all that he asks is that we turn on the lights so that both you and him can see the needs properly, and then he himself will cleanse your dirty home.  The dirty home I am referring to is the room in your heart where old habits, mistakes, ugly behaviors and secrets reside. If we say that we don’t have dirt in our hearts, if we say that we don’t have sin, then we lie and there is no light in us. We must choose to open the door and turn on the light, exposing the contents to God and confess that we have a problem if we are ever to have fellowship with him, because he is light, and in him there is no darkness. This light is likened to the pureness as far as motives and true righteousness is concerned. When we remain in the dark, we do not reside with God. If we ever want to walk with God and enter into his kingdom of light, we must first step into the light and abandon the lies.  You see, a person who says that they know God, while never turning on the light, despite how many scriptures that they can recite or how well they can teach a bible lesson or the miracles they might be able to perform, the Lord will address their claim to be his disciple on judgement day and say to him, “depart from me, I never knew you”, because that deceived man or woman thought that their vain attempts at cleansing themselves while never exposing the contents of their room to God who only dwells in the light, the Lord will be accurate to say that he never knew him because he dwelled in darkness, and not in the light so the Lord never saw him he was hidden from his sight. Make no mistake, if you are to be saved, you must be real about everything before the father of lights.  

1 John 1:5-10

5 This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. 6 If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. 8 If we say we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. 9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us.

We will say to him, “but I prophesied in your name, I cast demons out in your name”, but here’s a deeper look at this let us get this:

We have a front that we are presenting to him, how we want to be seen by him, but that is not who we really are on the inside, and when he looks at you he wants to see the inside, and because you won’t allow him to see the whole truth, then the “you” you hope he’ll see is not who you truly are and he will not ever truly know you.  Do you get it?

Selah, let us think about this

Heartache

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I have been dwelling in a place that I now know as heartache. This is not the same as heartbreak because its been sometime now since I’ve had my heart really broken. Actually this isn’t true it has been recent like less than 6 months. I suppose this would explain my state of heartache. Heartache though is not something I’m choosing. As a matter of fact I’ve been trying really hard to step out of this yard of heartache. However I’m learning that even when I leave the yard of it, it is still there. It goes where I go because it comes from the inside. I suppose there is no instant heal spray. I suppose purposing to forgive isn’t a quick fix. I suppose distractions don’t resolve the ache… and it is not just I who aches, it is my children that ache. It is that boyfriend who aches. It is the friend who is always smiling who aches. We all suffer heart break, father how do we rid ourselves of such an infestation? I suppose part of it has to do with forgiving oneself. Maybe we are so busy forgiving others and not forgiving ourselves. I forgive myself for allowing myself to be vulnerable to be broken. I forgive myself for not being smarter to avoid getting my heart broken. I forgive myself for not being strong. I forgive myself for wanting to be loved. I forgive myself for not being perfect. I forgive myself for being someone who has beem rejected. I forgive myself for being me. Valuable life lessons can rise from the ashes of heart ache. One is compassion for others with heart ache. It helps when you know that you are valuable enough to inflict heart ache or even a healing in another persons life. Women (and me ) should not embark on giving their heart in an unhealthy endeavor to fix someone else. You wont fix someone else but you can lose yourself. Or.. is losing yourself the key? Its just impossible to enter into marriage without losing yourself to somebody in a way. You lose yourself by giving that person confidence.. which means you are risking betrayal. But my motto is.. don’t trust anyone.. therefore i don’t trust anyone. But that being said.. being married means you trust someone right? But i cannot trust anyone. I’m not ready.. but.. can a person ever truly be trusted? I suppose this means the test of time.. i don’t know I’m waiting for that one person who can ignite my trust. Is that possible? Only God knows what is best in the end.  I think he’s got this i just have to trust in his guidance on every matter. Especially when it comes to marriage partner.. the bible says that when we honor our parents we are putting a garland of wisdom and promise around our necks. We should listen to them. We should seek wisdom in marriage. We should follow their advice. We should follow.our fathers advice.. he knows best. Father please add learning to our ways. So that we can keep our path straight. Amen