Last year I had been set free from many fears, and also many toxic people. The Lord had given me a word from psalm 34:19 promising me that he would deliver me from all that troubled me. Then I saw a vision of him coming to me as a consuming fire and when he came upon me it was almost too much to bear, to be so close to his holy anger, but it was due to having a revelation of his love that I could endure. I also knew that his consuming fire would burn away all that caused me pain. I knew that anyone who caused me problems would regret it. This work that he began with me began from within me. God had began giving me revelations of how he saw my deepest thoughts and feelings and that those very things were what he cared about. I began to understand this past year how much God genuinely cares about us. This is where faith comes from. This is what Jesus spoke of when he told us not to be afraid or anxious about anything and then he spoke about the birds in the air and the lillies in the field, how neither of those creations strive for anything yet God still cares for them. This is the understanding that Jesus had when he touched people and they got healed. This was the love for people that he had when he died for them and forgave them. So I also experienced much rejection this past year from even spirit filled friends who even though were anointed and favored, also had their flaws. God showed me that again those who know him also stumble and fail. He removed everyone from my life who was unhealthy for me, whether they were gossiping about me or they were discouraging to me in some shape or form. I had identify with the scripture that said that God can make the rocks praise him, well he can also bring up the right friends from those rocks. The most impactful lesson I learned was to sit at Jesus feet and not rely on opinions of someone else, or on projects or anything else other than the words from his mouth to feed me. I was so weighed down by the words, thoughts, and opinions of other people that it was not making God happy. Even well meaning people, and he led me to just unfriend many and at the moment it was a little scary but later I felt the relief and understood even more why it was necessary. I learned about soul ties and how soul ties with anything or anybody outside the Lord’s guidance can truly weigh on the soul. I had an unhealthy relationship with a Christian man who looked good on paper in some ways but who was hurting me with his head games and it was poison for me. I finally let him go. Then I met my soul mate. We are courting and I am so happy to have met the man who God intended for me to be with. Yesterday as I prayed to the Lord about recent mistakes I had made he spoke to me and said, forget the former things. Forget the past mistakes you make. Forget the past ways of thinking and being and believing. Sometimes we are not called to figure out or fix but to let go and embrace God’s newness of life and his great mercy. Amen he has great things in store for me. I also submitted my first book for publishing and I was supposed to have my first copies by now. I expected them in November but I still don’t have them yet. I suppose I wasn’t meant to publish it until this year. I’m working on my second book as well.
I often don’t even know what I’m going to say when I open a new blog. This is the title that keeps coming to my heart, yet I don’t know what to say. He makes all things work for my good. This means that all the little things that we feel ashamed about desiring or maybe it is a personal struggle that really weighs us down, are allowed to be there for God’s purposes. We don’t have to think that we are alone or fear abandonment by God for having these “light and momentary afflictions” because he is the Alpha and Omega, which means that he is ultimately in control of the happenings of our souls and we are not alone. Don’t think that what you go through is so unusual, as a matter of fact it is a common occurrence to many believers, yet many are not at liberty to discuss it. That is also the wonderful thing about shedding light in the darkness, because when the light exposes the darkness, it leaves. It loses its power. When we hide issues and truths that we would rather not be brought to the light, then instead of going away, they grow into a big ugly monster. When the light illuminates what is in the dark, then it becomes small and powerless, and thousands of demons go to flight. Demons cannot stand the light. Their powers are in their lies. As long as we allow them to stay in the shadows then they will pull us down into the their depths of despair. Despair is not of God and cannot continue when in the light. Bring the truth to the light. Amen.
Many people associate prospering with having stable finances, or with having loved ones all around them. Though these things can be called prosperity, they are not the same thing as soul prospering. A soul may prosper whether the person is rich or poor. A soul may prosper whether they are loved by many or alone. Soul prospering has nothing to do with our circumstances, or what we have or not have. Though every human being would love to have these types of prosperity, it was not lasting. If your soul prospers based on what is happening around you, then what happens to your soul if circumstances change? Abraham was promised many descendants, yet before he had died he only had two living sons. Yet, he still prospered. Soul prospering comes from the inside out and is based on faith. It is rooted in what God says about you, and what he promises you. Your circumstances can look bleak while someone who isn’t Godly seems to have much prosperity, but as I mentioned, circumstances can change. Even if they never change, one can still have soul prosperity. When a person’s soul prospers, then they have no fear, and they have much joy and peace. It is God’s will that we all prosper, even as our soul prospers. The only way to gain true soul prosperity is to be connected to God, and then the life blood of Jesus flows through our veins giving prosperity to everything. It assures you that you are accepted, loved, and adored. It assures you that God cares about every single thing that concerns you and that he is for you and not against you. It takes all your insecurities away. It changes us from the inside out, where we are free to be ourselves. We can now be naked and unashamed. God wipes all of our tears away. We are known, we are celebrated, and we know without a shadow of a doubt that that will never change. We have a future, and we have a hope, even if it is only for eternity where we will never endure sadness again. Thank you Lord for soul prosperity. Thank you Jesus for dying so that we can live.
Psalm 16:9 “Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure”
“Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him from them all”
This is the Lord’s personal promise to me in this season of my life. He has quickened it to my heart more than once, and then I’ve read it many times in different places. When I begin to fret about a problem, old or new, I recall this promise. Then I rest again. It only takes a tiny bit of faith to move mountains. It only takes the word of God given to you personally to build your faith. When he says that he will deliver me from everything, I mean he will deliver me from everything. His presence comes upon me and shows me the fine details I get caught up thinking about, and he says to me, “I am going to deliver you from all that concerns you”. How glorious is that promise! How consuming is the delivering fire of the Lord. I am reminded once again, he is going to deliver me from all my cares. Think of a single care, and this is what he said he will deliver you from. Anything that brings an ounce of interest to my mind, he will deliver me from that and make it right. My finances, you are going to deliver me from all my troubles, my home needs, you are going to deliver me from all my troubles, my children and family, you will deliver me from my troubles. My enemies, you will deliver me from all my troubles. Everything that has been done wrong, you will make all things right. All things within my thinking and my feeling, you will deliver me from these things. My relationships, you will deliver me from all my troubles. All the things that are not right without me, you will deliver me from all my troubles. All the things I don’t like in my life, you care and you will deliver me from all these troubles. All those who stand against us, you will deliver me from all my troubles. You see me, and you care about me. You care about everything that concerns me. You see me as beautiful, you have loved me with an all enduing love. You have been faithful to me. Surely goodness, and mercy, will follow me all the days of my life and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Hallelujah. You and I are one.
That lack of satisfaction with something in your life, that is called hunger. That need to change something about yourself which never goes away even when you justify it, that is hunger. That lack of peace and happiness you feel, that is hunger. Hunger is similar to the empty, burning you feel in your stomach pouch when your body runs low on fuel, sometimes hunger is manifested in other areas of your body, such as weakness, tiredness, irritability. Those who have low blood sugar often feel the pains of hunger and learn to easily identify when they need to eat. It is common knowledge that those of us who overeat on food, are often try to substitute soul hunger for physical hunger. We even are so convinced that it is hard to train our brain otherwise, stressful eventual= sudden irresistible urge to raid the fridge or order a cheesy pizza.. or .. fill in the blank.
The bible speaks much about soul hunger, and even tells us the name of it, giving it a label for those of us who like and rely on labels, this label can help us identify what we are actually hungry for. This label is called, “righteousness”. Yes, we are deeply hungry for righteousness, to the point that without it we may whither away and die in our souls. The Lord has helped me become familiar with this new label, and as I seek him when I’m feeling dissatisfied, he is teaching me why. True, we humans often have emotions or a longing for something and we can’t even identify what the need is. Some of us who believe we are smart in our rights will often label it ourselves, but we are told that this is foolishness, and to fear God and not rely on our own understanding. He says, “acknowledge me in all your ways and I will make your paths straight”. As smart as I think that I am, I have learned that I really know nothing unless the Lord teaches me. So all that I have is from him. I know much only because I seek him much as a clueless vessel. “Lord, please help me know, I don’t have a clue”. He honors that, he is merciful and expands my understanding a lot. I cannot brag, it is all from him because I admit I don’t have a clue. When we humble ourselves before him, he will lift us up. Humility is simply understanding who the credit truly belongs to, that is all. Those who believe it is because they are naturally smarter than everyone else, are truly the foolish ones, and those who are the dumb and weak in the world, God will lift them up. Actually, we are all the same to God, foolish or humble, he exalts all who ask because he gives graciously to all without finding fault (James 1:5).
So, as I was saying, when I ask God, “why am I feel dissatisfied, why do I feel discontent?” He reminds me of something that I have been struggling with for as long as I can recall, and I think of all the ways I have tried to overcame, only to fail. How I’ve tried to accept it, how at moments of weakness I make excuses and justify it, making room for the flesh. The bottom line is, even though my flesh is so entrenched and does not want to change, but Jesus died so that I can have freedom from that. That is called being dead in the flesh. As long as I live according to the old dead man, I will reap soul death. Jesus died so that I can overcome and rise above.
If I was content living in that state of old ways and having soul death, then I wouldn’t need a Savior nor would I have hope for something better. Yet, because I have been saved by grace through faith, I been promised new life, and for this reason I am dissatisfied. That is called soul hunger. That has been given a label which Jesus called, “righteousness”. He said, “blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied (Matthew 5:6). If you are a Christian, and are feeling dissatisfied, I assure you that you are hungry. Sure, you believe you are hungry for _______.. fill in the blank but I’m predicting what you think belongs in that blank is a desire you have been longing for, but that is not what you are hungry for. What you and I and every person hungers for is to be righteous. The dead hunger for life, those who have never been born again. They are at risk of never obtaining true life as long as they reject the truth and embrace Satan’s lie that there is no true salvation nor purpose in this life. They say coping is the way to handle this life, to make the best of it, and then expect to die, the end. Those who are saved, long for fullness of life. They long to step out of the chicken coop and soar above the storm, because they are now an eagle though in their old way of believing they still live as if they are a chicken who can only hop, flapping its wings and go so far. We all are meant to soar. Soaring is being alive, identifying with life, and this begins with dissatisfaction. Friends, that dissatisfaction is a gift. It is called, “hunger and thirst for righteousness”. Until we meet that need, and rise above our old ways of thinking and believing, then we will never have that need quenched. There is no substitute for it. It is time to stop believing that you can’t, or that you don’t want to change, because that is a lie. Instead, let that hunger motivate you to seek what truly satisfies.
When I understand that this intense hunger is a need to overcome, then I also realize there is more aggression to overcome. I don’t want to be held back any longer. I don’t want to be passively accept status quo. I can’t. I’m hungry. When a person truly becomes hungry enough, they cannot ignore it anymore. At some point they stop waiting for food to fall in their life. If they have no food in the fridge or no money to buy more, than they will beg or start looking in other people’s dumpsters. When we have a hunger for righteousness, we can get so hungry that we will do whatever we have to do to be filled. Thank You Lord Jesus for giving us this hunger. Surely those who have it and see it for what it is, will finally be satisfied.
This is a continuation of my last post. I am not about to take on the exhaustive task of posting every single dream, vision, and prophesy I’ve had, however I want to post a few. I feel a strong need to post about these things. One dream in-particular I had just last month. I had a dream that I was standing on the porch in front of a home on a hill or mountain in a city that I believe was Jerusalem. I was facing the house, and the Lord spoke to me from behind me. He said he was going to give me all of Israel. He said first I would have to go through Jerusalem which was just a small stepping stone. At that I turned around to take in the sight of the City, and it was like an airplane view my vision swept across the tops of the buildings, including the one with the gold pointy roof.. and the city kept going and going and going. It was so vast. I accepted the fact that he told me he would do this and resisted any inclination to question him, because if nothing else I’ve been taught that if he says he’s going to do something, then that means he’ll do it. I also was in awe in how large Jerusalem was. I concluded that this dream was about my ministry when I woke up.
I’ve been told that God is going to send me to multiple countries. I’ve been prayed for by MOG that I will have an increased anointing in my ministry and that I will heal people and set them free. This has been my personal vision and desire since I was first filled with the holy ghost, to set captives free and do even greater things then Jesus did as we were told would happen in the later days. I believe we are in the latter days due to all the visions and dreams I’ve been having. I’ve been told I’m going to have another baby. I’ve been told I will write books and be given a key, and I was given a key in a vision in which I was taken to heaven. I’ve been told tonight by someone they had a dream about me standing on a mountain and directing a crowd of people on the direction they should go. I also had a vision of leading a crowd of people more than once. I’ve had visions of flying in the air because I was so filled with fire. Why? because like Jesus, I was made for these purposes. We have all been made for a God given purpose, and we all will accomplish it if we allow God to help us do so.
It is God and Jesus who gives me the faith to hope and believe that these things will come to pass. I’m ready. I was told I would enter the promised land soon. I suppose the reason God will bring people to prophesy and pray such things is to encourage, direct, strengthen, and because their prayers are part of the process. My entire life story, including the times I wrote creative stories and read to my sisters as children and journaled and took writing classes in school was part of my life story and God’s grand plan. That is the important point that is to be made in this blog. That yes, God does have a master plan, and we have desires, hopes, dreams, prophesies, and visions however it is the people who pray for us that cause it to happen. It is that one person’s act of faith in obedience by sharing their faith, their word, their money, their talents, that brings it to pass. We are all part of his body and all of our unique strengths AND weaknesses, acts of faith and service all have their place in the grander plan and we will all be rewarded accordingly.
I will end this on that note with a prayer. Father, please bring these visions and dreams to pass. My greatest desire is to number one, be one with you, and number two, use the gifts and talents you’ve given me to honor you and win souls for you. Please let me not miss out on one single person you have planned to lead my way. Help each of us discover by faith our own individual talents, gifts, and callings and stir a longing to satisfy it. Help us by giving us the grace to desire to fulfill your desire and give us the tools and knowledge and wisdom in stopping Satan from doing his work to stop your will in our lives. Please bring down your kingdom and your will be done on earth as it is in heaven that not a single one of us will be lost. It is all for your glory, in your power, and for your greater purpose which we praise you for. I look forward to the new kingdom that is coming our way.. Amen.
Within the last 48 hours I’ve had 3 men approach me and give me a word from the Lord. Each word has pertained to ministry. I’m being told God has given me favor. I’m told I will lead many people and help them. I’ve been told God will help me and he’s with me. It is God who has inspired a few destiny helpers to think to pray for me regarding these things. The thing is that I already know God is leading me into evangelism. I know I will visit other countries and lead people. I don’t know how, except that God will guide. I don’t need people to validate this to me, however the fact that God inspired people to approach me and speak to me concerning this is very encouraging. I am writing a book. I feel like I’ve been saying this forever, but it’s taken me this long to get to this point. It is intimidating writing this book because I’ve never written a book before, though I know this is what I’m made for. I finally got through my outline which I had taken a short cut and tried to skip doing an outline, which just ended up delaying the process more. I would claim that it’s been a waste of time, but that would be false. Even though I haven’t made the progress I’d wanted to by now, all the work I had put into brain mapping, outlining, writing thoughts here and there.. filling up note book after note book with ideas, all eventually lead me to the actual writing of the book. So all the books and articles I’ve read about writing a book has been accurate in that they all say one common thing, and that is that at the end of the day, what matters is to write. So I had finally gritted my teeth and pushed myself past the automatic discouragement, fear, and distractions that want to derail me. I also never sit down anymore to write without first praying for God’s grace to help me write. This has been fundamental in getting me through the process. I am confident that future books (a couple are already in the budding stages) won’t be so painfully long to get accomplished.
I’ve had several prophesies, dreams, and visions regarding my future in ministry. I had been afraid to openly talk about such things for fear that it looks like I’m bragging. However, I am continually reminded by the Lord that the reason why he shows me some things is so that I can declare it from the mountain tops. Sure, there are areas that I could have more discretion in, and discretion is what I have been asking for a lot lately. Discretion of the spirits of every matter, because up til now during my entire spirit filled life I had been pulled by two voices. God’s and the counterfeit, 3 if you consider my own. I had asked people about this experience much this past year, and I don’t get a lot of feedback, other than “his sheep know his voice”.. which at first I took as offense because I felt like they were implying I didn’t know God’s voice. People just aren’t always going to be able to judge our experiences because they are so personal and they just cannot know unless they were able to walk in our shoes for some days. The good that comes from this is that there is a purpose for all that we go through, and I have discovered that the reason I’ve been allowed to go through the spiritual experiences I have, especially concerning the spirit of fear, is so I can teach the world about distinguishing between God’s voice and Satan’s voice. This is preparation for the anti-Christ, because the biggest issue during that time will be that people will be lead astray and deceived by the counterfeit spirits, the signs and miracles, the appearance of Godliness that all have an appearance of wisdom, but all of them deny that Jesus is the Christ. Even believers will be deceived i believe. I believe this adamantly because of my own personal trial with being confused about the voice of the spirit of fear vs God’s holy spirit. Satan’s presence is so crafty that the feelings are very similar to that of the holy spirit, the words can be scriptural, yet have the wrong spirit. What about when you are prophetic but you hear two voices? It sounds like the same voice, however one voice leads you one direction, and the other the opposite direction. It is clear to me now that the only way a person will be able to rise above and overcome in following the Lord during such an experience is if they are truly crucifying their life, picking up their cross and truly obeying. The knowledge of the word in itself is dangerously deceptive in that knowledge can puff up and lead one to fool themselves into thinking they are in the right because they know what is right. Yet as they continue not obey the word they know, they will be lead the wrong way.. and think they are right in the process. God has set up our lives in a way that requires true devotion in order for us to be saved. However, even if we turn to the right or to the left, we will always hear a voice behind us telling us the right way… he will finish the good work he began in us that is for sure. Amen.
I asked God for a prophetic dream that helped enlighten me and he gave me one , but it was not one I expected . In my dream I was in an apartment building and I enemies after me so I was trying to escape. I first had to retrieve my child and when I came to her and she put her hand in mine I suddenly had a baby in my arms as well. My heart was melting as I looked down at my babies. They were mine and even though I didnt have a man there I felt strong and safe. I felt strength inside of me, giving me knowledge that although I had enemies and had children to protect, my adversary was no match for me. I was stronger then them. I didnt have a man with me yet in this dream I did not feel alone. I felt support in the background.. then as I stood there on the roof with children in arms a helicopter came and I woke up.
Its interesting how weird our dreams can get yet how much we can gain from them. This teaches me that having a lack of a desire does not mean that we lack what we need. Lord keep teaching me so that I will come into all that you have for me and find much godliness with contentment.
I had a vision that led me to understanding. There is an appearance of Righteousness that is not of God. Such people would be dressed to the part. They will appear to be good guys. They will appear to uphold the law. In this vision I saw myself being taken into a house with my kids and my captor was a very large strong man, but he was looking behind him and looking over his shoulder. I was confused for a moment because he seemed to be kidnapping me but upon further inspection he was protecting us. He looked outside at the sky and there were helicopters looking for me and he was disturbed and closed the door when he turned so i could see his face he was getting larger and he had fire behind his eyes and was opening his mouth to roar.. this was a vision that came upon me and when i sought to understand it the Lord showed me that the helicopters were like police.. i was wondering why id be hiding from the police is this an apocalyptic vision? But i understand that these are people who are not on God’s side. We consider righteous people the good guys but these people were not because they did not have the right heart and were against God. This large man was protecting me and I knew that the helicopters would not ever find my family because he hid them. Sometimes what we call evil is really God protecting us from evil. We need to trust what God has provided for us. We need to trust and understand that appearances are not always right. Righteousness is not about rule keeping aside from the will of God. True righteousness is obedience to God. We can follow rules but have hate in our hearts. Always trust God. We try so hard to protect ourselves that we assume God will not use our current circumstance and the current people but faith is embracing what he has already done in your yard. Now I understand that this was an Angel of the Lord, and in the end times, there will be much persecution and those who are right will be treated like they are wrong, by the “good guys”, beware.
Revelations 19:12 “His eyes were as a flame of fire, and on his head were many crowns; and he had a name written, that no man knew, but he himself”
We are blessed with the gift of prophesy, either directly as some are given the gift by the anointing of the holy spirit (and if this is not of the holy spirit then we need to be considering the demon of divination), or passively by enjoying the prophetic word given by someone with this gift.
A true prophetic word has a few key components. The very most essential component is that it originates from God. A prophetic word that comes forth from the prophet’s mouth first was given to the prophet by God, a true prophet will only speak out what the Lord God had imparted to them, whether by a gift of wisdom, knowledge, or revelation. Sometimes it feels like the Lord comes and drops these things in our spirit as a friend describes “into our spiritual womb” and it makes one feel slightly full and burdened as if pregnant and is a relief when we finally utter that word and “give birth” to this spirit baby lol.
So the next component is that the prophetic word is received by and given forth by faith. By faith we learn that it is God who is giving us this message and it is his will that we speak forth this message. It is something that is learned as the prophet Samuel had to learn. When Samuel was still a child and called by the Lord he didn’t recognize this at first, all he knew is that he kept hearing a voice call his name. Finally with some help from a more experienced minister he was taught that when he heard this voice he should turn an ear and say “yes Lord” then listen so this shows us that when this gift is imparted God will call us and speak to us and we can have the “gift” before we ever really understand this. I myself had been given this gift many years ago, but it has taken me all these years to learn the ins and outs of the gift and to mostly have the confidence of faith to use it.. but Satan also knows usually even before we do and will attack that person to darken their star, though sometimes it is these very attacks from the adversary against the prophet that ends up serving to shape and strengthen them in their fight against him. If you are one who has experienced many heart breaks, rejections, devastation then look at it this way- Satan sees you inner star even if you yourself have not seen it yet.
The gift of prophesy is used for a couple of purposes- to exhort, edify, inspire a person a church it will always point to God and not the prophet. Yes the prophet will receive some glory in that they are respected as a man or woman of God but the gift itself is not meant to make us serve that person, but rather to increase our love and service to God.. to be continued…