God Is My Husband

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I have an issue with questioning who my future husband will be.  I inspect many people who come across my path.  I have always been husband focused.  I hate this.  It is a desire that never meets satisfaction.  I believe that everything will work out for my good, even the minor, more pesky challenges that I face.  Even this issue I keep having.  I believe that God uses this need within me to help me understand that he is my husband.  No, I don’t believe it is wrong to remarry and I know I will marry again, but this time I have a new purpose, and that is to please Jesus and have true contentment.  Not a life of my own making, but rather of his choosing.  As I keep asking, “who is my husband”, I am reminded of the way God showed my heart to me today and revealed to me that he is working on my behalf about diverse things.  Then I am once again reminded that God is my husband.  What does it mean to call God my husband?  It means that he watches out for me.  He is faithful to me and is thinking about me.  He understands me like no one else can understand me, and he is for me and not against me.  He is the best listener.  He is the most loyal friend.  He is there even when I don’t deserve it.  He cherishes me and tells me how much he adores me.  He gives me gifts.  He is Sovereign and reveals to me that he is in control and that I have to only trust him and obey.  God is so Sovereign, when I look upon this I have a deeper need within me met that wants to be submissive.  I want to let him lead me.  I want to be cared for and loved.  I don’t want to be mistreated.  God is truly my husband, and I can enjoy this union with him even better than if I was married to a carnal man.  Lord, help me forget about this need or put it in its proper place.  Amen.

Who are the Sons of God?

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Romans 8:14 KJV “For as many are led by the Spirit of God, they are the Sons of God”

As we mature in our faith with God, then we leave the black and white of following religious laws, and we start following the leading of God instead.  Those who are led by God are the Sons (and daughters) of God.  We are also told that where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom (2 Corinthians 3:17).  That means that the law of life in Christ sets us free from the law of the sin of death.  This means that we are in a relationship with God now, and that he is the rule maker, not the law.  This means that he breaths life and meaning to the law, and we walk according to what he says rather than the law without the Spirit.  This does not by any means mean that we can live in lawlessness, but it means that we are not confined by the law.  How can that be?  The mystery that we are told in the bible, the same place where religious law resides, is that following God leads to a fulfillment of the law (Matthew 5:17).  However, following the law does NOT lead to a relationship with God.  Am I lying?  The bible itself tells us that (Romans 3:20, Galatians 3:11).  This means that I am free to do all things, though not all things are beneficial (1 Corinthians 10:23), therefore if a person explains to me that they are free according to their faith to indulge in certain activities that are not highly looked upon by the church, I don’t judge them, and neither should you!  Why?  Because a person’s salvation truly is between them and God, and we are told this in Romans 8:33.  Those who want to point out that they have a right to judge the church always leave out all the scriptures that warn against judging God’s servants, which far out number those that give them privilege to bring charge against God’s Saints.  The reason why we should be so cautious when it comes to judging another believer is that true Godly judgement requires a genuinely pure heart.  Many who judge are bitter, critical, and are not truly speaking in a heart of love and so they judge incorrectly in pride and are setting themselves up for judgment as well.  A true Son of God is led by the Spirit of God, not the law, rather they become a living epistle of the law.  Hallelujah!  In order for a person to have assurance that they are a true son of God, they must truly seek him and also obey him according to the faith they have been given so that on judgment day they won’t be among the deceived who may be told to depart from God because he never knew them in truth.

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Forgiven

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I had a dream this morning that I was tempted and eager to give into that temptation.  As  a matter of fact I had made a choice to give in, but while preparing to give in to the lusts of the flesh, I briefly looked to God and prayed.  What happened next was that he closed the doors.  I could have pushed them open and forced the sin, but instead I went with it and accepted that God looked out for me and prevented me from sinning.  While laying in bed awake afterwards I was feeling the weight of my flesh desires verses my knowledge of what is right.  I hate the idea of is standing before God after I had knowingly given into sin, especially after all that he has done for me, such as giving me the gift of knowledge and many mercies.  How can I not stand there condemned?  I would accuse myself!  I don’t need Satan to accuse me.  Usually scenarios like what happened in my dream adds to my anxiety because I know better, yet I choose to engage in that temptation anyways.  But, in my dream God delivered me.  God has forgiven me.  I also think of all the people who I judged because they gave into their weaknesses and knowingly sinned against me or a loved one.  Here’s a difficult concept for some people to accept, God knows we are evil in our flesh nature, and he has chosen to forgive us.  Jesus died so that when I sin, it can be forgiven.  Does that mean that I or anyone should knowingly engage in sin?  No, we should not knowingly engage in sins, yet there are times when we will.  If it was not for his forgiveness, great love, and mercy then who could stand?  No one could stand.  I am just not good enough.  No one is good enough.  We have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.  This is reason to praise God.  He loved us enough that while we were sinners he died for us.  Lord, please help me remember that forgiveness is necessary in relationships even when the other person lets us down, and that love covers a multitude of sins.  Thank you for reminding me that you love me despite my temptations and failures.  It is my desire that I won’t fail anymore.  Help me be stronger than I am, yet I am grateful that without your grace I cannot succeed.  It is because you love me and forgive me that I am able to stand.  Deliver me from evil, and from temptations.  Lift up my feet so that I will soar above the trials and not hit my feet on the stones.  I am righteous because you have loved me and because I said no even though I could have.  You want me to remember that.  I was tempted, but when you made a way out, I took it.  Thank you for making a way out.  Thank you for encouraging me that before your site and because of your great wisdom, I am righteous.  I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.  Amen.  What the Lord is telling me this morning is that this is spiritual warfare, and that no weapon formed against me will prosper.  Hallelujah!

Forgiveness-Newsletter

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Today I am reflecting on how we are to think of ourselves with sober judgement.  We all feel special to some extent, because we are.  How can we not be when we were made in God’s image?  We are made to reflect God’s glory.  Yet, sometimes we only focus on our attributes rather than the bigger picture which is, how the world might view us.  As I consider the world’s view of myself, or rather how someone who isn’t biased might view me, I realize that without the vision of God, I look like an ordinary average person.  I see my weaknesses and my flaws.  I can see the difference between my ideal of myself, and what I am in reality.  The truth is that only God can make this unappealing earthen vessel into his master piece.

Also, I realize that only God can help me overcome my every day to day obstacles, the Lord knows I have not been able to do this myself.  Only God can justify me.  Only God can defend me.  Even now it comes to knowledge that all those who would think to form a plot against me, or think evil of me, God is there interceding for me as we speak.  Only God knows me as I hope to be, only God is able to truly believe in me.  Each person is unique.  Each person is without hope, and only God can redeem them.  Each person needs God’s mercy, the mercy that only God can provide.

Only God stays near me, even when I fail.  I fail all of the time.  Only God can love me, even when I am unlovable.  Only God can uphold me, and my purpose is for him.  Without him I would had already committed suicide years ago, even if I didn’t die, I would be dead already on the inside without him.  He truly is the only good being in this life.  No, there are good people, lovable, caring souls but no one is perfect, even Jesus said only God is truly good.  There just isn’t any purpose in this life, and only God is the reason why I find myself.  I was created to know him.  I was created to praise him.  I was not ever able to be satisfied by anything in this life, except for God.  Only God.

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How Do I Know When I’m Ready?

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I’ve been wondering why I haven’t been able to successfully date someone?  I mean I recently had a boyfriend who was far away, we never met in person, but when it comes to dating men nearby I have anxiety.  Honestly, I have had anxiety anyways which also made it hard for me to enjoy my long distance relationship.  I realize that I have just not been really ready.  I know that God will make all things clear, and that he knows this is a topic that concerns me and he cares.  Sometimes it is the seeking that gives us the answers we need.  Only if we know the questions we seek.  I know that God will cause all things to work out for my good.  How do I know when its time?  I think that I will know it is right when I am not trying to force it.  I think I will know it is right when I am not trying to compromise.  I think that the reason I can wait, even though I hate waiting, is because I do not need a partner, though God may bless me with one.  I need only one, and that is God.  Two are better than one, but two is not mandatory, and should not replace our relationship with God.  God has made it clear to me that he makes me sufficient for my girls who don’t have their dad.  His love for me is also sweeter than that of any man.  When we have God, then we have all that we need.  I need to complete God’s project that he gave me.  I trust him to provide for all of my needs.  It is in the waiting he has shown me.  Maybe it is when I am certain that I am enough that I will be ready.  I don’t know if my self-concept will ever change, but God knows what I need.  He knows when I’m ready.  Lord, please lead me and enlighten the eyes of my understanding.  Amen.

These Burdens Are Too Much

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It is true that our burdens are too much.  We were created to have and enjoy our lives, and our curse was to have to work for it.  We were created to have our every need provided for.  Rams have indwelt abilities to withstand headbutts, but we do not have an indwelt ability to carry our own burdens.  These burdens are too much.  When we think about what our burdens cost us, why not cast our cares on Jesus, who died for us?  He said, “come to me all you who are burdened and heavy laden, and I will give you rest, cast your cares upon me, because I care for you”.  Part of the curse of death is having to carry our burdens alone.  These burdens are too much.  When we turn to God with our cares, he is able to give us rest for our tired bones.  Thank you Lord for relieving my cares and for taking care of everything that concerns me.  Please remind us all that you are near, not far away.  Remind us that we are not meant to carry our burdens alone, but that we can cast those cares upon you and that as we do you keep us safe.  Help us have rest.  Amen

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God Defends Me, I Am Not Afraid

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Isaiah 37:35 KJV “ For I will defend this city to save it for mine own sake, and for my servant David’s sake”

Psalm 105:15 KJV  “Touch not mine anointed, and do my prophets no harm”

 

Many times the Lord had revealed to me how he punished a person who at one time or another had stood against me.  He always defends his anointed, in his own way and in his own time.  He had given me revelation knowledge maybe immediately after the person spoke or stood against me, or way after it had occurred which was always affirmed by its manifestation.

So why will God do this for me or another?  Is it because I am special or that he respects me over another?  No.  I am not better than anyone else, I am weak and human.  Rather, it is because I am anointed with his Spirit, and it is for his names sake that he defends his anointed ones.

His word makes it clear that he defends the weak, first of all.  Secondly, he defends what is right, for he leads us on paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.  When an anointed man or woman of God is walking under the inspiration of his Holy Spirit, then whoever offends that person is offending God himself, for whatsoever a person does to his anointed ones they also do to him.

God must defend his anointed ones for righteousness sake.  Hebrews chapter 12 makes it clear that God will punish those who he loves, so when a person acts out of line, or mindlessly speaks curses and is unjust in their dealings, then they are standing against the law, and they are standing against what is right, and God is righteousness himself.  He also defends and protects his bride, because he is a faithful husband, and we who love him are in covenant with him, we are his bride.

God even corrects other anointed men and women who stand against me when they are out of line, because what is wrong is wrong, and what is right is right.  God’s correction will surely come, but many will not be corrected because of their pride.  This is not right.  Therefore, it is necessary that in order for that person who is corrected, correctly, by God that they should receive it.  Don’t harden your heart, rather humble yourselves.  Even I am corrected from time to time when it is right.

Those who are anointed by God should be in step with God.  They should maintain a humble and malleable attitude at all times, because humility is the mark of a true servant of God, not pride.  The good news is that grief might last for a night, but joy will certainly come in the morning, and those who are corrected by the Lord’s rebuke will reap a harvest of righteousness (Hebrews 12:11).

If you earnestly seek the Lord and earnestly open your heart to his correction, then he will lift you high and honor you with long life.  Dear ones you anointed ones need not ever fear for God will defend you for his names sake.  This is why I don’t bother defending myself, because I know God will do it.  I know that those who speak against me without righteous heart motives will be dealt with according to God’s name, especially when it is against him.  I don’t fret, they are setting themselves up for their own downfalls, I rest secure Hallelujah.  Thank you Abba Father for defending me.  Your love is fierce and your justice sentence is always right.  You are glorious.  I praise you.  Amen.

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The Good Father

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God is a good father.  We know this in theory, but do we know it in heart?  I love how personal God makes things for me to comprehend.  He will do this for anyone who seeks to know him and asks him for help.  I rely on him to get through my day, as I am weak and he is my strength, and he makes me strong for sure by comforting me and counseling me.  It is his faith.  We say with our mouths that God will protect us, but do we believe?  We sing his praises in the church chair or pew, but do we then walk away and believe he is going to do evil things to us if we make even the slightest mistake?  If we truly believe that he is good as we sing about when we praise him, then why are we afraid?  The Lord wants to give you a deep, personal revelation of his love.  He is not just good to a few, he is good to all, it is the lack of faith that keeps us from seeing it.  Lord, open our eyes.  Heal our hearts.  Give us rest and peace today.  Open our eyes so that we can see you.  Give us deep penetration today, not because we deserve it, but because you are good.  Here is what he told me, and it is true for us all.  He said, if you who are evil (yes, all humans have evil in them aka flesh) know how to do good things for your children…… this means that if we consider the most evil person, even they know how to bless a person… so if we who are naturally evil, know how to do good for our children, then how much more will he, GOD, who made us, and who is naturally good and loving, know how to do good things for his children?  God said, “I created good.. who do you think first came up with the idea of surprises and blessing a person’s socks off??”  So we can praise him for the good he will do, even though we don’t know what the good thing is yet, just because we know that we will be faithful to give us all good things in the name of Jesus.  Amen.

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Everything Will Fall Into Place

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One of my good friends had been saying the same thing over the months, they said, “when our situations settle, everything will fall into place”.  I knew exactly what that meant.  It means that God has a plan and when all the situations work out, then the pieces that we have been trying to find the proper place for will suddenly fall into place.  I have spent so much time trying to force pieces into place, not being content until the puzzle was solved, however being willing to ensure that this occurred even if the final image was bent, torn, and close to the correct size but not right after all.  That is called impatience.  That is called fear.  Fear of not having a completed puzzle, and fear that God will leave me to figure it out on my own.  Even though this is something I couldn’t consciously comprehend, that is what was beneath the surface festering, causing me to put together and try to force together pieces of the puzzle that were not meant to fit.  This friend also once said to me, “don’t force anything!”  That wisdom has never left my mind, and it has since lingered and guided the path that I have been taking since than.  So, what will the final outcome be?  The truth is that none of know what we will end up being, or what God has in store for us.  We couldn’t even fathom or imagine it, the bible tells us this.  All we have to do is trust in God.  We just need to have a relationship with him, talk to him, and seek him in earnest.  Do our best to please him as a wife would do for her husband, a Son for his Father, A daughter for her mother, a husband for his bride, though that is what we are to Jesus.  Jesus never got to have a bride.  I got to thinking one day that maybe Jesus would have loved a bride.  Maybe he would have loved Mary Magdalene or someone else, and maybe that was the need that God intended to satisfy him with and made the church his bride.  Maybe that was Jesus secret prize for faithfulness.  I am not pretending that that is what the bible said, rather it is just a guess because that is the way God is.  He intends on giving us back far more than we could ever expect or give him in return.  We are his bride.  We are his pride and joy, and our completeness is his eternal joy.  That is what is his prize, to see us truly fulfilled.  That is what love is.  So for this reason we can trust that everything is meant to fall into place for us.  It surely will.

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Be Brave and Say Goodbye

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I said goodbye so many times.  Now I find my mind still wonders to him.  This time I’m reminded as to why I keep saying goodbye.  When it is not right, it just is not right, no matter how much we had want it to be right.  Be brave enough to say goodbye.  God makes all things right.  God is always right.  Just let him go, and this time, mean it when you say goodbye.  God has bigger plans for the both of you.  This time, don’t think about what could’ve been, or even what should have been, though what should have been was genuine love.  It doesn’t make either of you wrong, it means that you are now growing up.  Be brave enough to say goodbye.  Saying goodbye doesn’t mean you hate each other, it means that you love each other by doing what is best for the other.  People talk of toxic people and toxic love, yet is there one person who is truly better than another?  We all have our flaws and failures, we all screw up in one way or another.  It means that you have different callings, and gifts that are unique to your own life and if you have a conflict of interest, you will always be at odds.  Take your time and chose right before you say I do.  Chose to love each other and if you cannot give yourself up for the other than allow them to go.  Be brave and say goodbye.

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