Everyday Experiences of a Spirit-Filled Christian Woman
Through life's challenges I have learned that Jesus really is the only one who can truly satisfy. Through his grace I have already achieved so much, and wish to include you all in my journey as I continue to press on towards the mark to which I was called. I hope that you can identify and share in my successes and even my failures. It is also my hope that you will see what a day in the life of a spirit filled believer looks like up close and personal. May you be blessed as I am blessed, and may you share in my anointed grace. God bless you as you read.
There is one thing God says to me repeatedly that always makes me feel strong, confident, and comforted. He says to me that if it offends me then it also offends him. This helps me know that he has always been on my side when I face diverse conflicts with others. Even when contending with other Christians. It is possible to be a Christian in lable and belief but not in actions or attitudes. These who say they are right in their hearts while they excuse what is wrong are not truly on the side of God. I am in no way perfect. Those closest to me know my flaws and how I fail but I’m honest about it. First before God. It is a pure, contrite heart that God won’t despise. He does not honor perfection, but rather he makes us perfect but he will favor truth as he is spirit of light and the truth. What does the bible say? It says when we say we are without sin we do not walk in the truth and are calling God a liar – 1 John 1:8
King James Version
8 If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us.
The word tells us that it is in the confession of sin.. that we are cleansed from all unrighteousness.. and that it is God who does that…
But the self-righteous get it backwards. You see they strive to be without sin, or deny they are in sin to themselves or others.. the first way leads to self-righteousness, the second way is deception. But the third way is God’s way, and that is to admit you have sin and in this way you are contrite before God, you are humble and don’t strive against others believing you are better and therefor are able to be truly effective, and also you understand that it is not because of what you have done that you are righteous but it is because of God’s great mercy and forgiveness that you stand, firstly justified, secondly purified, and lastly glorified..because of what God has done by way if his son, not by our works that any man can brag. Amen
I did not grow up in a christian family, as a matter of fact my family all came from a past of emotional, physical, and sexual abuse, drugs and alcohol, suicide attempts, and a lot of attempts to break cycles while being broken. When I came to Christ I had a lot of brokenness, and although Christ can and will heal broken hearts, this is not a quick fix. I expected that when I went to church I’d be embraced and loved, but instead I’ve been hurt, judged, and mistreated by those who are supposed to be Godly leaders. I’ve gotten close to pastors and Sunday school leaders just to be witness to them shining a light on a newcomers mess, stuff that should be held with the utmost confidentiality and dignity,with the intent of informing others of that families business. Churches want to grow and thrive yet its own leaders are failing the families who need them the most. I am not exempt.
When I married my husband I finally found a good one who comes from a family who loves God, so I expected to be embraced, loved, and accepted. Yet right now I am feeling the pain of gossip. I have been criticized, judged, deemed unworthy, and feeling somewhat rejected by people who are supposed to love God and who I thought would love me like God loves people. This is the pain of gossip. Many of the lifers I will call them, the ones who have gone to church and served as members of their churches their entire lives might not practice lewd behavior, they might not have drug addictions or be engaging in any obvious sinful actions, yet they judge, criticize, and gossip. This is what keeps the hurting away. My pastor has reached out to us since we’ve been away, yet when i think about going back to church I recall the regular lifers who are mean, critical, and are gossips. These are many of our church leaders today. I’m grown up, I understand that no one is perfect, but i’ll tell you what, as coming from a person who has come to Jesus with lots of brokenness that those who are the most prime for Jesus are not the hypocrites. They are real people with ugly faces who wont trust people when their love is not genuine. They might not observe acceptable social graces but Jesus didn’t come to call the righteous, but the sick and when you gossip you are far from being like Jesus. What the world needs is Jesus, not judges. It is very painful for a person who needs real healing to be real around a bunch of gossips.
To have genuine love we must practice what Jesus taught us to practice. We need forgiveness. We need to be quick to forgive. We need to pray for that person who hurts us, judges us, abuses us, not gossip about them or hurt them. We are in a spiritual war and in this war people see others actions with magnifying glasses and their own with rose colored lenses, but Jesus said that instead of trying to remove our brother’s speck we ought to be focused on the dirt in our own lenses, and if we say we have no sin then we have lied and the truth is not in us. Jesus had every justification to have the righteous throw stones at a sinner caught in adultery, but instead he said “he without sin cast the first stone”. He says that when we correct our own behavior then we will display humility in helping another because we wont have the attitude that we know better or are better. Jesus said the last will be first and the first will be last. He said that we all fall short of the glory of God and our righteousness are like filthy rags. Lord I pray that you will help all of your children really know what it means to be like Jesus.
No one can make another person see the error of their own ways. The way I see it is that humility is a blessing to those who are willing to lay down their lives in order to really know Jesus. There is no sense in arguing with anyone or trying to change them. Christian brothers and sisters throw stones at each other in a competition. Another might be throwing stones at you and cursing you, being in rivalry with you but you do not have to play. Put your stone down and walk away. Put your hope in Jesus, he is the only one who will know the truth anyways. If you have Jesus, you have all that you need, and to be Jesus is what we need but first we must suffer like Jesus did to know what it means to forgive like he did.
It is only after we have been hurt like Jesus has that we will understand the pain like he has and when we are forgiven much we then love much because when we know that we are not worthy or better than anybody then we also wont be quick to judge anybody because we are humbled and know that we are or have been in that same place, instead of hurting another we should be praying for them, protecting their dignity, and forgiving them. Being like Jesus starts with forgiveness. If we hold things against someone else we will never get to know what it means to truly be a genuine christian because Christianity is hanging on the cross for our brethren, it is forbearance, it is lifting a brother or sister up instead of trying to step up on a higher pedestal, it is believing the best, hoping the best, and letting our love be the best. Jesus said if anyone wants to be great among you, let him be your servant.
We all have offenses, but no one else can clear us of our offenses except for Jesus. Who are we to judge another man’s servant? But we are all held to the same expectations, to give, to forgive, to love and be like Jesus. Who are we to say to the provider what are the fair wages? Shall we tell him that he owes us more since we have worked longer ? Or should be praise him for being such a good provider that he will give much to someone who he just hired? We will all be rewarded according to our own faithfulness in the right way, in God’s time but we are all expected to be obedient with what assignment he has given until then.
We either let God have control, or we try to take control. I have many times believed that I let God have control when it was really me in control.
Here is a clue that God is not in control, we feel burdened, oppressed, fretful, unhappy.
" But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law"
Galatians 5:22-23 kjv
The joy of the Lord is supposed to be our strength.
“Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the LORD is your strength.”
Nehemiah 8:10 kjv
I’ve been led to spend time waiting for the Lord to speak every morning. This morning it was hard I felt anxious to rush and do things, but as I felt his mandate to be still, I instead got quiet and waited for him to speak to me.
As I laid still and waited, he showed me how all of our rushing is our attempts to be in control, and the fruit of our labor will be whatever we can muster with these two hands. Yet if we waited on the Lord then our reward will be a whole lot sweeter because he has the whole world in his hands.
Our ways are carnal, and are man made, but his ways are infinite and when he touches anything he creates.
He is able to make a crooked path straight.
“I will go before thee, and make the crooked places straight: I will break in pieces the gates of brass, and cut in sunder the bars of iron:” Isaiah 45:2 kjv
He is able to make gardens grow in the desert place
“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert”
These past couple weeks have been difficult. Beware when you believe you stand lest you fall. I’ve had many angry fits. I’ve had resentment and unforgiving. At the end I question my witness, but it just reminds me that I’m not any better than anyone else.
In the midst of it all, I am surprised condemnation has not shown his ugly face, this is usually when we are weakest of all.
But it is when we are weak that we are made strong.
“Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:10 kjv
I have a portion of that verse tattooed on my back. It has been what God has said to me all my adult life. When I am weak, then I am strong.
Come to think of it, I am always confronted by my weaknesses, my inabilities to completely be right all the time. This is a big reason why I am also always strong. Because then I am reminded that I have not done anything without God’s love giving me grace, insight, faith, answering me when I’m at my worst.
I was visited by an angel tonight I’m sure who told me that there is nothing that I could do that could separate me from his love. Thank you father for your loving kindness, your mercy is new every morning and all day long.
“It is of the Lord’s mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness” lamentations 3:22-23 kjv
I may fall, but the father’s love never will. I am humbled and astounded by the riches of his love. Great is your faithfulness my heavenly father. Now help me be like you. Help me never to forget how deep is your love. You give strength to the weary and comfort those who are broken. Amen
that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith—that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.
I had been given a heavy blow the other day and it got me side tracked, slightly. Satan hits us where it can really hurt, and if there is someone who you get support from who helps you, then that relationship makes a perfect target. It hurt, it still hurts, but my troubles have never stopped God’s faithfulness. This is why we need to be surrendered, Satan will try us like he tried Job if God allows him, and God will allow hardships to test us. He will test if our love is true, but even more he shakes us to wake us up. His word promises to shake the earth (us) so that anything that is not of him will be destroyed.
And these words, “yet once more,” signifieth the removing of those things which can be shaken, such as things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain
So the final product should make us glad because our trials are like the refiners fire 🔥. If it ain’t the Lord, then it isn’t worth my time or devotion. That is why the Lord allows it.
Yet we praise God despite the hurt. We praise him because what he has is enough. We can count the blessings he has given to us. He has forgiven us. He has revealed himself to us. What I truly value about him is that people come and people go but the Lord always remains faithful,yes I Praise him in the deepest valley. I thank him in the desert. I trust him amidst the storm.
Not my will be done but yours be done father. Why so downcast, oh my soul, why grieve and worry and why be afraid. Someone else might abandon you but I will still provide for you. Hunger for my righteousness and I will make you warm. 1000 reasons to praise and believe in the goodness of God amidst the storm.
Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.
I will yet praise him for sure, I’m in love with you my savior and my God 🙌
I keep hearing the Lord our God say to me, “my ways are not your ways, my thoughts are not your thoughts”. What meaning comes to your mind when you hear this? I used to automatically feel reminded that it meant that my mind is too little to comprehend what God is thinking, but that is not exactly what he meant when he said this to his people through the prophet Isaiah.
What did he mean?
Surely there is no doubt that God’s understanding far surpasses our own. Yet, is it God’s will to lord that over us? Does he want us to be ignorant of what he thinks about things?
Not at all, God knows what we lack, and he chose to make us out of the dust and share with us his thoughts. He chose to have a relationship with humanity.
“For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.”
1 Corinthians 2:16 KJV
"Surely the Sovereign LORD does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants the prophets" Amos 3:7 NIV
God chose to join his spirit with us in our flesh and make his mind and will known to us through our Savior Jesus Christ.
So if we know that by the scriptures and through the holy spirit given to us that God freely makes his thoughts known to us, then what did he mean when he counseled Israel, reminding them that his ways are higher than theirs, that they are higher than ours?
What he meant by telling us these things is he meant that he is better than we are. He is more merciful than we are. Unlike mankind’s hearts, his thoughts are pure and his love is perfect.
“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love”
1 John 4:8
When we read the entire chapter of Isaiah 55, we see that he talks about how he makes the rain and snow fall so man can have crops to live by. In another verse we are told that he makes the rain to fall on both the wicked and the righteous. God loves everyone. We don’t believe in his good plans for us because his ways are so much higher (better) than ours. We hate and don’t forgive, so we assume that God hates us and won’t forgive. We are vengeful so we believe God is quick to anger. We don’t give mercy to another so we beg God for mercy.
To know God is to have faith in his ways. To know him is to celebrate. This is why he beckons us to come to him, so those who don’t have food or money will receive without having to pay.
“Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and you will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
listen, that you may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
Isaiah 55:1-3 NIV
He says to me, “in me is everything you need”. What is this bread that he speaks of? The word says that Jesus is the bread of life and the living well, and all who come to him will never thirst again and to take his body and eat.
The word also says that Jesus is the word made flesh, that he is the living word and as you read the gospels you see that he only speaks what he heard his father God speak. Therefore, the word of life, Jesus is the flesh, is the word of the living God and that is what gives us life and makes our joy complete.
Jesus replied, “If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water.”
Special emphasis on the word “He”. “He” referring to God. Jesus said “I am the vine, you are the branches, you cannot do anything apart from me” (John 15:5). It is empowering and peace giving when we find out that it is “he” who will do that good work in us.
It only takes one bible verse to meditate on to change our ways of reasoning and to transform our lives. One tiny seed of faith. Faith and his word are one. His word, even one word is like a tiny mustard seed of faith that changes all that we are and anything that we face. Jesus said that it only takes a tiny seed of faith to move a mountain.
"And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you" Matthew 17:20 KJV
Meditating on his word is planting that tiny mustard seed of faith. Only one word spoken by the Lord our God and our Savior Jesus Christ is needed. Today that word for me is Isaiah 51:3
"For the Lord comforts Zion; he comforts all her waste places and makes her wilderness like Eden, her desert like the garden of the Lord; joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the voice of song"
Apply every sentence of that verse to what is a waste land inside of you. It says that “he”, the Lord will comfort Zion, who is the one chosen by him. It is the one who seeks, the one who believes and longs for the day that our bodies will be reconciled and become one with his spirit inside of us. “Us” is the humanity that cannot perceive or even think about him unless he enables us to see and think about him. Humanity is death and will not inherit eternity, but rather it is by his holy spirit that our bodies will be resurrected to life and redeemed along with our souls. In that day we will be made perfectly holy. In that day we will be complete and our bodies will no longer war with his spirit for our souls. Our souls will be at peace.
For now it is “he” who will comfort us in our waste places. Our waste places are those places within and without us that is in want. That lacks, that is thirsty like a dry desert place. It is the part of us that still isn’t complete, still doesn’t know. The part of us that still frets or seeks to be satisfied and is hungry. That might be a person who lives in famine. That might be a person who is anxious or depressed. That might be a person with a heavy weight on his or her shoulders. It is a person who keeps praying and has not yet received. What is your desert place? What is the waste land in your life?
Meditate on Isaiah 51:3 and apply his promise to your desert place. “He” will do it, he will make our waste land like the garden of Eden, which represents every single need inside of us being met by “him”, God. You see Adam was cursed to have to work the land himself, outside of God helping or doing it for him. That is the curse, but God gives the blessing of a garden of Eden in our desert places.
“He” will do it. He will comfort me. Just focusing on “he”, is enough to water my dry valleys. It is enough to know that it is not I who will accomplish it except as he leads me, but that he will bring water to me. It says, “joy and gladness will be found in her”. Amen, let it be.
I’m back to filtering my thoughts through the word of God. Every once in a while I get a little demon try to attach itself to my thoughts, but when I am focused on Jesus, which is the truth they don’t stay around long.
It amazes me that even Christians shirk at the talk of demons. They want to believe that demons are just an occasional side note, that they are haunting a person’s house, or they are all in hell, or they are only hanging around devil worshippers, or they might occasionally possess a poor wretched soul.
But that isn’t what the bible says, and those who won’t see their problems for what they are will be deceived. Atheist, Buddhist, devil worshipper and Saint. The word makes it clear that our war is not with flesh and blood (2 corinthians 10:4-5) but with demons who rule the air aka earth and who work in every disobedient soul ephesians 2:2 Saint and sinner alike. This isn’t about good person vs bad person, but it’s about being one with the word of God. Being one with the word is being one with Jesus and truth.
Truth is that there is only one way to get rid of demons, and that is to slash them with truth by power of the holy spirit. We are to take authority over our beliefs and not just eat on any belief that we hold. If it is contrary to the truth then it is a web of lies called a strong hold. The way to get rid of demonic webs is to look at Jesus and meditate on his word of truth.
Amen lord give us eyes to see the truth. He keeps in perfect peace he who’s mind is stayed on him
Isaiah 26:3King James Version
3 Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.
We are told that our weapons are not carnal (human) but rather they are mighty to the pulling down strongholds which we do by casting down the lies and speaking to our minds and others truth
Some think they cannot overcome evil spirits unless they have a priest come but that is not what the bible says. The bible says that we have to attack them at thought level, that we must filter all our thoughts through the truth of God’s word. If we receive Jesus as our savior then we have all the authority that we need because through Jesus Satan was already overcome. We just remind Satan that we know who is boss. We do this by resisting his lies, speaking the truth and telling him to go. But don’t get in a power struggle with satanic spirits, rather focus on Jesus who is truth.
English Standard Version
" Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things"
With Jesus all things are possible to those who believe, and it is by the truth that we overcome.
We know we are free when we have peace, joy, freedom from fear, worry, anger, malice and more. In Jesus which is the word of life (John 1:14) we have been given every spiritual blessing and we are seated with him in heavenly realms far above every power, spiritual authority and we have the power to overcome (Ephesians 1:20-21, Ephesians 2:6-7).
I feel like I’ve written on this topic a lot, yet I will always write on it because it is the truth that needs to penetrate deep within our souls. God is leading me to rest, rest, rest. Yet my old way was to worry, worry, worry. Each time I hear myself asking subconsciously if it is his will that I really rest and not try to figure things out, I immediately think of the scriptures that say, “what can you change by worrying?”
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Luke 12:25-26 NIV
Being content with the Lord leading you, and being content with not being able to do everything you had planned is a good way to put him in the seat of Lord, even when those plans were all meant to please him. You should know that he is in control of everything in our lives, and that he has his eyes on the sparrow. To not rest is to be proud and to operate apart from him, the one who knows best at all times.
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Matthew 6:25 NIV
This is very humbling to know that God doesn’t need my plans to succeed before he is able to proceed. As a matter of fact, my plans are my striving, like a rough draft in a book, in which the draft represents all that is me, but the final draft results in a lot of the rough draft getting edited and the Lord’s will taking place in the end. In the previous verse Jesus said that the birds don’t sow nor do they stow away.
Fear Says that we have to sow and store away
The bible says that we must sow, and it talks of the wise man being like an ant and I take it from that it means that an ant stores away, yet Jesus mentioned that the sparrows who are cared for won’t do either of those things. So which part applies to us? The part that God speaks to you personally about any given matter at any given time.
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity or cowardice or fear, but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of sound judgment and personal discipline [abilities that result in a calm, well-balanced mind and self-control]. 2 Timothy 1:7 Amplified version
Fear tells us that we must plan for and prepare every little thing. It says that we have to worry and fret and cannot rest until we have every detail accomplished. It says that we must plan our own way. Doubt says that God is a myth and to not worry is to be unwise. Doubt and fear are demons and who we are not supposed to follow, but the wise will walk by faith and not by sight.
For we walk by faith, not by sight 2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV
Anyone who puts their hope in Jesus and who seeks to obey him and does as he does, following his lead alone will not be put to shame. Thank you Jesus I give you credit for all that you say through me. May you receive all the due glory in your name. Amen