Praise God from whom all blessings flow

I had been given a heavy blow the other day and it got me side tracked, slightly. Satan hits us where it can really hurt, and if there is someone who you get support from who helps you, then that relationship makes a perfect target. It hurt, it still hurts, but my troubles have never stopped God’s faithfulness. This is why we need to be surrendered, Satan will try us like he tried Job if God allows him, and God will allow hardships to test us. He will test if our love is true, but even more he shakes us to wake us up. His word promises to shake the earth (us) so that anything that is not of him will be destroyed.

And these words, “yet once more,” signifieth the removing of those things which can be shaken, such as things that are made, that those things which cannot be shaken may remain

Hebrews 12:27

So the final product should make us glad because our trials are like the refiners fire 🔥. If it ain’t the Lord, then it isn’t worth my time or devotion. That is why the Lord allows it.

Yet we praise God despite the hurt. We praise him because what he has is enough. We can count the blessings he has given to us. He has forgiven us. He has revealed himself to us. What I truly value about him is that people come and people go but the Lord always remains faithful,yes I Praise him in the deepest valley. I thank him in the desert. I trust him amidst the storm.

Not my will be done but yours be done father. Why so downcast, oh my soul, why grieve and worry and why be afraid. Someone else might abandon you but I will still provide for you. Hunger for my righteousness and I will make you warm. 1000 reasons to praise and believe in the goodness of God amidst the storm.

Feeling a lot of peace after some deliverance

Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.

Psalm 43:5

I will yet praise him for sure, I’m in love with you my savior and my God 🙌

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His Ways Are Not Our Ways

“For My thoughts are not your thoughts,

Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.

“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,

So are My ways higher than your ways,

And My thoughts than your thoughts”

Isaiah 55:8-9 NKJV
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I keep hearing the Lord our God say to me, “my ways are not your ways, my thoughts are not your thoughts”. What meaning comes to your mind when you hear this? I used to automatically feel reminded that it meant that my mind is too little to comprehend what God is thinking, but that is not exactly what he meant when he said this to his people through the prophet Isaiah.

What did he mean?

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Surely there is no doubt that God’s understanding far surpasses our own. Yet, is it God’s will to lord that over us? Does he want us to be ignorant of what he thinks about things?

Not at all, God knows what we lack, and he chose to make us out of the dust and share with us his thoughts. He chose to have a relationship with humanity.

“For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.”

1 Corinthians 2:16 KJV
"Surely the Sovereign LORD does nothing without revealing his plan to his servants the prophets" Amos 3:7 NIV

God chose to join his spirit with us in our flesh and make his mind and will known to us through our Savior Jesus Christ.

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So if we know that by the scriptures and through the holy spirit given to us that God freely makes his thoughts known to us, then what did he mean when he counseled Israel, reminding them that his ways are higher than theirs, that they are higher than ours?

What he meant by telling us these things is he meant that he is better than we are. He is more merciful than we are. Unlike mankind’s hearts, his thoughts are pure and his love is perfect.

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“Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love”

1 John 4:8

When we read the entire chapter of Isaiah 55, we see that he talks about how he makes the rain and snow fall so man can have crops to live by. In another verse we are told that he makes the rain to fall on both the wicked and the righteous. God loves everyone. We don’t believe in his good plans for us because his ways are so much higher (better) than ours. We hate and don’t forgive, so we assume that God hates us and won’t forgive. We are vengeful so we believe God is quick to anger. We don’t give mercy to another so we beg God for mercy.

To know God is to have faith in his ways. To know him is to celebrate. This is why he beckons us to come to him, so those who don’t have food or money will receive without having to pay.

“Come, all you who are thirsty,

    come to the waters;

and you who have no money,

    come, buy and eat!

Come, buy wine and milk

    without money and without cost.

Why spend money on what is not bread,

    and your labor on what does not satisfy?

Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,

    and you will delight in the richest of fare.

Give ear and come to me;

    listen, that you may live.

I will make an everlasting covenant with you,

    my faithful love promised to David.

Isaiah 55:1-3 NIV

He says to me, “in me is everything you need”. What is this bread that he speaks of? The word says that Jesus is the bread of life and the living well, and all who come to him will never thirst again and to take his body and eat.

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The word also says that Jesus is the word made flesh, that he is the living word and as you read the gospels you see that he only speaks what he heard his father God speak. Therefore, the word of life, Jesus is the flesh, is the word of the living God and that is what gives us life and makes our joy complete.

Jesus replied, “If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you living water.”

John 4:10 NLT
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He will do it!

Special emphasis on the word “He”. “He” referring to God. Jesus said “I am the vine, you are the branches, you cannot do anything apart from me” (John 15:5). It is empowering and peace giving when we find out that it is “he” who will do that good work in us.

It only takes one bible verse to meditate on to change our ways of reasoning and to transform our lives. One tiny seed of faith. Faith and his word are one. His word, even one word is like a tiny mustard seed of faith that changes all that we are and anything that we face. Jesus said that it only takes a tiny seed of faith to move a mountain.

"And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you" Matthew 17:20 KJV
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Meditating on his word is planting that tiny mustard seed of faith. Only one word spoken by the Lord our God and our Savior Jesus Christ is needed. Today that word for me is Isaiah 51:3

"For the Lord comforts Zion;
he comforts all her waste places
and makes her wilderness like Eden,
her desert like the garden of the Lord;
joy and gladness will be found in her,
thanksgiving and the voice of song"

Apply every sentence of that verse to what is a waste land inside of you. It says that “he”, the Lord will comfort Zion, who is the one chosen by him. It is the one who seeks, the one who believes and longs for the day that our bodies will be reconciled and become one with his spirit inside of us. “Us” is the humanity that cannot perceive or even think about him unless he enables us to see and think about him. Humanity is death and will not inherit eternity, but rather it is by his holy spirit that our bodies will be resurrected to life and redeemed along with our souls. In that day we will be made perfectly holy. In that day we will be complete and our bodies will no longer war with his spirit for our souls. Our souls will be at peace.

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For now it is “he” who will comfort us in our waste places. Our waste places are those places within and without us that is in want. That lacks, that is thirsty like a dry desert place. It is the part of us that still isn’t complete, still doesn’t know. The part of us that still frets or seeks to be satisfied and is hungry. That might be a person who lives in famine. That might be a person who is anxious or depressed. That might be a person with a heavy weight on his or her shoulders. It is a person who keeps praying and has not yet received. What is your desert place? What is the waste land in your life?

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Meditate on Isaiah 51:3 and apply his promise to your desert place. “He” will do it, he will make our waste land like the garden of Eden, which represents every single need inside of us being met by “him”, God. You see Adam was cursed to have to work the land himself, outside of God helping or doing it for him. That is the curse, but God gives the blessing of a garden of Eden in our desert places.

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“He” will do it. He will comfort me. Just focusing on “he”, is enough to water my dry valleys. It is enough to know that it is not I who will accomplish it except as he leads me, but that he will bring water to me. It says, “joy and gladness will be found in her”. Amen, let it be.

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So Much Peace

I’m back to filtering my thoughts through the word of God. Every once in a while I get a little demon try to attach itself to my thoughts, but when I am focused on Jesus, which is the truth they don’t stay around long.

It amazes me that even Christians shirk at the talk of demons. They want to believe that demons are just an occasional side note, that they are haunting a person’s house, or they are all in hell, or they are only hanging around devil worshippers, or they might occasionally possess a poor wretched soul.

But that isn’t what the bible says, and those who won’t see their problems for what they are will be deceived. Atheist, Buddhist, devil worshipper and Saint. The word makes it clear that our war is not with flesh and blood (2 corinthians 10:4-5) but with demons who rule the air aka earth and who work in every disobedient soul ephesians 2:2 Saint and sinner alike. This isn’t about good person vs bad person, but it’s about being one with the word of God. Being one with the word is being one with Jesus and truth.

Truth is that there is only one way to get rid of demons, and that is to slash them with truth by power of the holy spirit. We are to take authority over our beliefs and not just eat on any belief that we hold. If it is contrary to the truth then it is a web of lies called a strong hold. The way to get rid of demonic webs is to look at Jesus and meditate on his word of truth.

Amen lord give us eyes to see the truth. He keeps in perfect peace he who’s mind is stayed on him

Isaiah 26:3King James Version

Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee.

We are told that our weapons are not carnal (human) but rather they are mighty to the pulling down strongholds which we do by casting down the lies and speaking to our minds and others truth

Some think they cannot overcome evil spirits unless they have a priest come but that is not what the bible says. The bible says that we have to attack them at thought level, that we must filter all our thoughts through the truth of God’s word. If we receive Jesus as our savior then we have all the authority that we need because through Jesus Satan was already overcome. We just remind Satan that we know who is boss. We do this by resisting his lies, speaking the truth and telling him to go. But don’t get in a power struggle with satanic spirits, rather focus on Jesus who is truth.

Philippians 4:8

English Standard Version

" Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things"

With Jesus all things are possible to those who believe, and it is by the truth that we overcome.

We know we are free when we have peace, joy, freedom from fear, worry, anger, malice and more. In Jesus which is the word of life (John 1:14) we have been given every spiritual blessing and we are seated with him in heavenly realms far above every power, spiritual authority and we have the power to overcome (Ephesians 1:20-21, Ephesians 2:6-7).

Don’t Worry

I feel like I’ve written on this topic a lot, yet I will always write on it because it is the truth that needs to penetrate deep within our souls. God is leading me to rest, rest, rest. Yet my old way was to worry, worry, worry. Each time I hear myself asking subconsciously if it is his will that I really rest and not try to figure things out, I immediately think of the scriptures that say, “what can you change by worrying?”

Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Luke 12:25-26 NIV

Being content with the Lord leading you, and being content with not being able to do everything you had planned is a good way to put him in the seat of Lord, even when those plans were all meant to please him. You should know that he is in control of everything in our lives, and that he has his eyes on the sparrow. To not rest is to be proud and to operate apart from him, the one who knows best at all times.

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Matthew 6:25 NIV

This is very humbling to know that God doesn’t need my plans to succeed before he is able to proceed. As a matter of fact, my plans are my striving, like a rough draft in a book, in which the draft represents all that is me, but the final draft results in a lot of the rough draft getting edited and the Lord’s will taking place in the end. In the previous verse Jesus said that the birds don’t sow nor do they stow away.

Fear Says that we have to sow and store away

The bible says that we must sow, and it talks of the wise man being like an ant and I take it from that it means that an ant stores away, yet Jesus mentioned that the sparrows who are cared for won’t do either of those things. So which part applies to us? The part that God speaks to you personally about any given matter at any given time.

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity or cowardice or fear, but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of sound judgment and personal discipline [abilities that result in a calm, well-balanced mind and self-control]. 2 Timothy 1:7 Amplified version

Fear tells us that we must plan for and prepare every little thing. It says that we have to worry and fret and cannot rest until we have every detail accomplished. It says that we must plan our own way. Doubt says that God is a myth and to not worry is to be unwise. Doubt and fear are demons and who we are not supposed to follow, but the wise will walk by faith and not by sight.

For we walk by faith, not by sight 2 Corinthians 5:7 NKJV

Anyone who puts their hope in Jesus and who seeks to obey him and does as he does, following his lead alone will not be put to shame. Thank you Jesus I give you credit for all that you say through me. May you receive all the due glory in your name. Amen

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I Will Define You

I keep hearing in my spirit the words from the Lord, “I will define you”. Recently I had a new face book friend add me calling herself by the title of prophetess, and I’m thinking to myself, “I’m a prophetess” but I don’t announce it to people, I just leave that to the Lord to reveal himself, if he reveals it at all, it doesn’t matter either way. I also know that many people will scoff and attack, fueled by Satanic spirits and I don’t like being pressured to explain myself so I usually won’t, but I see it as an unneeded stressors so this is also why I don’t refer to myself by a title. However, I have not stopped thinking about this young lady and her title. I also recall another face book friend who goes by the title “apostle”. I have also been called an apostle by others and honestly I do operate in all the gifts of the spirit depending on the different needs as the Holy spirit leads, but then I hear many teach that an apostle establishes and is head over churches and the title is reserved for men because only men can by in leadership positions in the church… yada yada yada… here is the thing, I don’t know that man (and I mean humans, people) are equipped to question and define over God. I was just having a conversation with my husband last night about how both men and women are made in God’s image. He tried to argue that woman is made in man’s image, however that is not how the bible defines a woman. Even after having this discussion with him as I was led and understood it, I read more scriptures in Genesis about this. It says in Genesis 5 that God made both man and woman in his image, and he called man and woman man. You see, God first made a man, then he took a part of that man, his rib, and made a woman. It is not that a woman was made in man’s image, rather, it is that God considers both of them one person and called them both man. The woman is part of the mans body, Ephesians 5:28-30 explains exactly this concept. It is saying that a woman is part of man’s body, and a man is to love his wife as he loves his own body, otherwise he is hating himself (my paraphrase).

" In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself.  For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church,  because we are members of his body" Ephesians 5:28-30 ESV

Now the word does say that it is not a woman’s place to rule over man, however I do not agree that God doesn’t call women to leadership positions. I believe the context here is that in general it is not a woman’s nature to rule over a man, however the word also defines woman as man and Jesus Christ is living through a woman just as he is a male believer as Galatians 2:20 is not limited to the male gender but to the female gender as well.

"I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me" Galatians 2:20 KJV

You see, when the word says that we are crucified with Christ, it is no longer us but him who lives, I believe this is referring to the living word. This takes into account that we are being spirit led, and not by our understanding as is referred to in Proverbs 3:4-5:

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths" Proverbs 3:5-6

This means that we are to follow his lead and obey him according to our own faith. In order to truly trust that you are being led by the Holy spirit and not by your own evil desires is that first of all you must have a mind attitude of offering your body as a living sacrifice unto God. When we are not willing to completely surrender to his leading, then we become deceived. But this is not the same thing as relying on human understanding. You see, I’d rather be spirit led, and not ruled by man made rules that are confined to human reasoning. “But God never goes against his word” they say. Oh yeah he does, he has, and he will.. not because he contradicts himself, but because it is not the written word that we are to go by but it is the living word that is in charge. There is an example in which God told Peter to go against his written word.

“And he said unto them, Ye know how that it is an unlawful thing for a man that is a Jew to keep company, or come unto one of another nation; but God hath shewed me that I should not call any man common or unclean.” Acts 10:28 KJV

This was after God gave a vision to Peter of many unclean animals that God had told his people in the past were unlawful to eat. This was the written law that the religious Jews adhered to because they wanted to be right by God. Yet God himself told him to pick and eat, and Peter said, “oh no God, I won’t touch anything unclean” and God said to Peter, “do not call unclean what I have called clean”. Now let me tell you I believe some modern day Christians would have told Peter that he was receiving a vision from Satan because God would never go against his written word. But here is what is biblical wisdom concerning the written law.

"Sin is no longer your master, for you no longer live under the requirements of the law. Instead, you live under the freedom of God’s grace." Romans 6:14 NLT

It goes on to say in Romans chapter 7 that just as a woman is freed from the marital obligation of her husband when he dies, so we are freed from the obligation of the written law through the death and baptism of Christ:

"But now we are delivered from the law, that being dead wherein we were held; that we should serve in newness of spirit, and not in the oldness of the letter" Romans 7:6 KJV

I know these things by the spirit of Christ. His holy spirit has given me much revelation about these things. This is why I won’t ever say a woman cannot be in a leadership position, nor will I say she can’t be an anointed apostle, unless God himself teaches me that is the case, and I really don’t believe it is. I believe that God has and does equip women to be anointed leaders through his holy spirit and that no matter how many men and women yell “rebellion!”, “Jezabel!” and so forth, they still shouldn’t try to limit God nor can they stop him. These same men and women are still trying to obey God by limited human understanding and are walking out their salvation in the flesh, rather than by the freedom and power of God’s grace and being led by his living word.

But Jesus says that he did not come to abolish the law you say.. he also went on to say that he did not come to abolish the law but to fulfill the law, which is by his spirit. Which is made clear elsewhere the newness of law is freedom and grace, and obedience by faith.. he says that we are no longer ruled by the written word, but rather the sons of God are to be led by his spirit, which gives meaning to the written word. The written word itself is rigid and does not have a mind of its own, but the living word Jesus is spirit and he fulfills the meaning and gives life to the written word by his spirit.

"But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned" 1 Corinthians 2:14 KJV
"Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law is the knowledge of sin.
 But now the righteousness of God without the law is manifested, being witnessed by the law and the prophets;
 Even the righteousness of God which is by faith of Jesus Christ unto all and upon all them that believe: for there is no difference:" Romans 3:20-22 KJV

I personally choose not to let man or their own rules define me, no matter how righteous and pious and holy it appears, because that is still flesh being in charge when it is limited to human reasoning. I would rather be led by the spirit. So who am I? How does Jesus define me? I am his daughter. I am both woman and man, taken from the rib of my husband who calls me a prophetess. Some call me an apostle simply because of my spiritual gifts, and I may be. I am also a teacher, a discerner of spirits and hearts of men and women, but none of that is from me, I cannot take the credit. I have spiritual gifts of revelation, knowledge, insight into all mysteries with great faith as the holy spirit leads. That is Jesus, he is living through me and Jenifer as she was aside from the spirit is sometimes sinful, but always dead. I think of myself as a prophetess though, because prophets are God’s chosen. He tells me his secrets. He reveals his will and his heart to me. God has chosen me to be his prophetess, so I will identify myself with prophetess. He said to me “old things are passed away, all things become new”. This is a new season of greener pastures. It is a season of abundance of his grace. Maybe I’ll call myself disciple, because that is what I am. Lord, who do you say I am? I’m still pondering this.

Prophetess Jenifer Gutowski-Vargas

You Say

I have many notebooks for different functions. I have writing note books for my book ideas and outlines, I have a journal notebook, a dreams & visions notebook, and a notebook that the Lord led me to start that is dedicated to writing down only the things that I hear him say.

Truth is that if you are a discerner like I am, then you discern not only God’s voice, but also Satan’s and the world’s. This is probably a trait of a prophet as I consider myself a prophetess though I rarely announce that due to avoiding unneeded attacks from people. If you are a discerner than you have enough attacks already. A discerner must operate in many gifts of the spirit in order to first of all not be overcome by all the things we sense and hear in not only the natural but also in the supernatural.

So the Lord is trying to help me focus on what he says, in the midst of what the world and Satan says. He also wants me to keep a record of all that he is saying to me so that when it is accomplished I have a record to show of all the countless times he spoke those words to me.

Along with discernment I am gaining wisdom in how to file away the things I discern. Lately I am being taught about the spirit of fear, oh how I have toiled with this demon. Today I see his habits, his characteristics. He is like a gossiper who gets his opinions of a person or situation and wants to relay them to a listening ear, except its character is one of being a coward. He himself wont confront a person about a wicked perception, nor will he admit it to that person that he is talking about them. Interesting lessons I’m chewing on today. You see, if you really want to rise above an enemy then you must know your enemy. Maybe not always, you can just follow Jesus and not fret at all about your enemies, yet what God is doing is helping me understand the spirits that come against me. When I perceive gossip from peers, or other negative things then I can consider the source. Should we bend our ear to a nay sayer? Should we fret about what an evil man or ignorant man thinks of us? Should we worry about gossip or what someone else thinks? Should we bend our hearts to a spirit of fear as he whispers his wicked thoughts about a situation into your heart, causing it to fear?

God says I am feared, which is why people get jealous and fear and gossip or hate. God says I am braver and stronger then any device of the enemies. We just need to gain new perspectives towards ourselves and every circumstance. “Who do you say that I am?” Jesus asked his followers. You see, Jesus knew who he was, but he wanted to see if anyone else was listening. Jesus raised a standard for the believers. He didn’t fret over the nay sayers in that he adjusted his words for their ears. Instead Jesus exclaimed, “who are my sisters and brothers? Who is my mother? … it is those who pick up their cross and follow after me”. He didn’t let the liars, wicked, doubters, haters or the manipulators lead the way, but he let those who loved him show themselves to him by leading the way and seeing who stayed.

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I still trust you

When considering what the Lord is doing these days, and the fears that I still face, I think about how we either trust him or we don’t. If you know him, then you also know that there isn’t a single thing in your life that he doesn’t care about. He cares about you and he is not ignorant of our needs. I decided that if he doesn’t give me what I asked for, then that is because he has something else planned. To only focus on what you want from God is to not have a mature relationship with him. To trust him is to want what he wants, and to rest. I still trust you father. I know that you have plans for me. Help me not to be limited by my lack of understanding, or reliant on it. Help me also not feel like a failure when it feels like others are succeeding and getting ahead. Change my perspective. Amen

Updates: love, marriage, and saying goodbye

Its been so long since I’ve visited this site that it seems to be a ripe time to check in. I’ve had many changes over this past year. I’ve met and married God’s gift to me. The very week that we went on our honeymoon I found out that my mom had liver failure and metastatic cancer and that she was going to die. Right after I returned from my honeymoon I flew back home to my home state to say goodbye to my mom. I got to spend 3 days with her, and on the third day as I was on my flight back home she passed away. I’m still heart broken. She was only 60 years old. Up until she died I always felt unloved and rejected by her, but now I regret not appreciating the love I did receive from her, even when it wasn’t much. I should have tried to talk to her more. I should have visited More. But I am grateful that I got to see her in her last days, I got to watch movies with her and talk about our faith. I got to hear her thoughts about dying and her wishes. I got to kiss her and say I love you. I wish I had more, but I’m blessed to have the Lord’s peace and assurance that she is in heaven and I still get to experience her from time to time. I appreciate the lasting changes her untimely death made on my heart. I’m happy that I had a change in how I see life and how I have reconnected with my family, it has been so long. It had been a slight challenge to our new marriage but its nothing we can’t handle. God gave me a good one. I’m so glad that God helped me learn how to rely on him because no one can ever take the place of the lord. A spouse is nice, companionship is nice. It is not good for man to be alone, yet when God is present we are never alone. So these experiences have began a new book in my life, one that is now colored by love, strength in God, church, family, the lbs coming home, eternity and grief. There is so much to tell about. It is as if my story has just begun. My mom passed away April 19th, 2021. I was married April 3rd, 2021. My book was finalized and went to the market the day before my mom passed away, or at least that is when I first noticed it was on the market. My mom never got to read it though I was able to give her my original copy, but that doesn’t matter now because she already knows what is in it, and what is to come. Maybe she’ll help me with my next one.

The verse that God gave me concerning my mom’s salvation
My love and I
My book listing Amazon, now available on Kindle