The life of a Christian who wants to be close to God can be like a major storm. Everyday for a long time my life felt like a storm. First the storm was a a result of bad choices I had made, but then I decided to surrender my life to Jesus Christ. I had given my heart to him already, but this time I made a real commitment that no matter the cost I would follow Christ.
The storm for a Christian who is struggling against the pull of the world, and turning to God to walk the straight and narrow is a bumpy one. There is the temptation to follow old patterns, and when there is no longer old patterns to deal with new ones arise. We are striving to be in our rightful place in the Kingdom of light, yet the darkness is still clouding our eyes and fogging our feelings and our thoughts.
New idols call to us to be focused on and worshiped. Things in our life goes wrong, for me it was a vehicle, a water pump, a home, slander, rejection, loneliness, fear, doubts and more. Probably the hardest hardship I’ve endured is overcoming myself. Letting go of old thinking patterns and belief systems.
There is certainly resistance when we first start walking with the Lord. There will always be resistance. It gets easier when we learn how to dwell in the eye of the storm. This isn’t about being a better person, or by sheer will power. This is about being in-step with the creator. Hiding under his wings, embracing him as a Father, and letting him be in charge. It isn’t until I started listening to his voice, and dying to my own will because I believed he had so much more in store that I started moving about life in the eye of the storm.
The storm still rages but greater is he who is in me. We can look at the odds, fix our eyes on impossible outcomes, on unmet perceived needs and wants. We can focus on failures within ourselves or blame our problems on others, or we can turn and look at God and tune out everything else that swirls around us, about us, breaking our house windows, blowing out the doors.
When we focus our sight on what is wrong with life, then we are navigating life in the storm, dodging debris. Fighting the fights that were not ours. As long as we keep looking to physical evidence and expectations, only feeling frustrated, we will remain in the storm. It won’t stop. Even if you overcome this one obstacle, then bam there’s another. You dodge the metal pipe blowing by your head only to side step and be knocked over by the door.
I am grateful now that God allowed me to be in the storm long enough to get the hint that the storm just does not stop, unless God stops it. I had to learn how to simply step into the eye of the storm. Walk by faith, not by sight.
The eye of the storm is where God is, and it is always calm there. It is always safe. It is always sunny, except when it is time to close my eyes and rest, but even in the dark there the peace keeps in my heart. His mercies are knew every day. He has died for me unconditionally and as long as I still have breath I can repent, over and over again. He is faithful, his love is enduring, he is slow to anger and to find fault. His love is genuine and true. He is always in control. God, through Jesus, is the eye of the storm.