I had a dream this morning as I was waking up. This man approached me but it was a sillouette as if they were standing in the background and he said to me “God is going to deliver you” and I had the understanding that help was arriving like other angels. There may have been more but that ia mostly what i recall. I think ue also said that God has heard my prayers. I have been praying and praying and praying over certain situations, so what does this mean? This means that I have extra needed assurance that God is going to deliver me from every evil coming against me, starting in the spirit realm. This means that even when I don’t see the manifestation I trust him, as Ive been trying to but its been difficult. This means that if there isn’t manifestation yet, then it is for a reason, not because God doesnt care.. but because there are background things that you dont understand. When Daniel prayed to God, his answer was delayed for a few weeks, because his angel was battling a spiritual power, the prince of Persia before it could make it to him. The greatest things are worth waiting for. God works all things for his good. Im waiting father and I believe. Help me remember. 🤗

Pushing Out the Enemy

When we are born again, then we have his nature and his mind. There is a certain spirit who clings to us and says “I’m so afraid, what will I do? How am I ever going to overcome? I need to know…” However if you pull out your spirit microscope that has a special extra sensory lense kind of like an infra-red feature, then you would see this ugly being clinging to you. He has black wavy hair and he is quivering and he’s holding your head… so you mean that those are not really your own feelings (those holy rollers always trying to demonize every thing)… yes I am blaming it on the devil.. and do you want to know how I can tell?

Because we have the mind of Christ. We have not been given a spirit of fear but of power, love, and a sound mind,(and because I received a vision of such a spirit being attached to me). Therefore if im frustated and desperate, and afraid, and angry… than that would be a lie.. because the bible says… I have the mind of Christ. The bible also says that I am more than a conquerer. The bible says that Satan is a lier. Who are you going to believe? A lier? Thank you holy Father God for teaching me the truth. The truth in this situation is what sets me free. Heres what we are told to do… the holy spirit reminded me of this as if it pertained to my kids. They get out of line… I can either allow the behavior or I can really punish it. We are to punish every thought and imagination that exalts itself to the true knowledge of God. God please give us the courage to resist the devil. Selah

Will You Be There

Sigh… so many times men fail us. I’ve learned to never take a person’s words at face value because how many times have they made promises and broke them? People are just flawed cracked pots. All we can do is be the person we want others to be. Let our own love be real and sincere. Not based on another’s expectations. I hear this song by skillet, will you be there? How wonderful if I could ask that of a person but I don’t ever expect it.. they all lie. Even if they didn’t intend to, we should let our yes be yes.. and let that yes have a time limit like “this answer is only valid for a limited time ” lol.. you know if a person could be taken to court and sued for not keeping their emotional vows than i think they would start adding that disclaimer.. “for a limited time only”.. than i would say “now that is believable”..

Let your yes be yes and your no be no.. for today because you dont know what you will do tomorrow…

Sincerely a disgruntled customer

Like Merlin

So I just started watching the series Merlin, I’m not sure how old it is, but I like it! It is a cute, entertaining show about Merlin and King Arthur’s bond. Merlin is a budding powerful sorcerer and King arthur is a future king. It turns out that their destiny is to help eachother and be life long friends. So in every episode Merlin has to use his magic to save his friend Arthur, who secretly loves Merlin but doesn’t treat him well. The problem is that Merlin gets no credit because the practice of magic is forbidden by Arthur’s father, the king, and anyone caught practicing it is sentenced to death.

I’m like Merlin I’ve decided today. No I don’t practice magic or sorcerery as I fear God and have views on it, but that’s besides the point. Im like him as a Christian is to their fellow humans. How many times do I have to practice love with a proud person and get no credit (except from God). How many times do I receive an annoying smack on the head, being told how dumb I am all the while Im praying for that soul to be blessed and delivered. This is what true love looks like. Yeah it can be upsetting when we are good to a person and get little or no credit for it, but that is the way it has to be as we are to do right as unto God not man. True love loves a person despite themselves or what they’ll get from it. Humans need a reward this is true however we do not act secretly as we may think. God says that what is done in the dark will be brought to the light, and that we should not resort to boastful comparrison but rather we should be satsified that we are doing right and just be pleased with ourselves which is more satisfying than public praise. Thank you for helping me grow in love father. Amen.

Time Out

Time out means to me that I’m going to take time out of whatever else it is I was doing, should do, or want to do to feul my spirit. During this time out Im going to chew on some scripture as the Lord says that man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from God’s mouth.. I often take a time out when im off work to get away from kids, chaos, or noise that is in not only my environment but also in my head and heart, especially if I’m feeling overwhelmed.. here’s some verses im choosing to snack on today:

Psalm 25:3

No one who hopes in you
    will ever be put to shame,
but shame will come on those
    who are treacherous without cause.

Psalm 91:1

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
    will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.

This is all for now

The Mind of Christ

We have so many things that war against our minds and our life. I pronounce that I am washed clean by the blood of the lamb. I have the mind of Christ and I speak truth over my life. A greedy spirit, a spirit of dejection, and every other thing that has been part of my life I take authority over by the blood of the lamb and I command you to leave my life now!! Newness in my life with fruits of the spirit joy, peace, patience, goodness, love, long suffering, truth I embrace you by his grace. Lord of mercy I ask for more grace in my life, wisdom and truth thank and I will worship you. Thank you father. Amen.

It Is All In Your Hands

We are told not to worry about our life because it changes nothing. We enter rest when we believe your perfect will and plan for our lives. Father please grant me discernment that I won’t be fooled by the evil ones. Please save my feet from the traps. Lead me upon your path of righteousness for your names sake. Father I declare trust in your perfect plan. Please give me grace so that where you lead I will follow amen.

Your word says that you will keep me in perfect peace…

Isaiah 26:3 New King James Version (NKJV)

3 You will keep him in perfect peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You.

Glory to you Lord for always giving me the scriptures I need as your word is a lamp unto my feet a light to my path. Men… man… they think they know what is best sometimes but they affect me not because my hope is in you my rock and my salvation my deliverer I trust your plan for my life Abba father you always know what is best.

Me and You

As always Lord it is first me and you. When I reflect back on my life I recall all the times you have isolated me in one way or another so to have me to yourself. Thank you. I know that this won’t last forever. I know you have good things in store. May you let every situation Im in for the rest of my days remind me that it is always me and you. Im glad you love me enough to set me apart for yourself. If humanity could only see how much you really cared. With your help I will open their eyes to your truth. I only have eyes for one as you’ve shown me how much less appealing anyone else can be. I trust that who I marry will also point me to you. Amen.

So Much Peace

Thanks to the Lord’s grace I have so much peace. He speaks many promises to me by his spirit when i pray in tongues especially and one of the promises I heard him speak is “my peace im going to give to you, not as the world gives will I give to you.. do not let your heart be troubled, do not be afraid “….

I had almost forgotten these words he spoke to me just recently and now they come to pass. Let me try to describe this peace that he’s giving me…

It begins with not allowing your heart to be troubled, but when we bind something we must often loose something as well, in this area i am binding a troubled heart but I am also loosing his promise. Just telling my heart not to he afraid is not sufficient in and of itself, rather we replace fear with faith..

Faith in this situation is recalling his spoken promises to me, and also recalling verses that affirm he is who he says he is. He won’t change. Unlike most human relationships his love won’t change, instead it remains. When he says he won’t abandon me, he means it and he will prove it until the day i take my last breath and after that point I will be in heaven where he is for all eternity. So my peace comes from trusting in Jesus.

Also, the Lord is doing some yummy things on the inside of me. He really is keeping my heart in perfect peace. To be continued as I receive the words to articulate.. thank you Lord, to him be the power and glory forever amen.

Gluttony … number something

It has been a while since I’ve blogged about this topic, however I feel lead to come back to it, so here it is. I have not stopped seeking the Lord in this area, as the moment I get stressed or upset, food is what calls my name. I am being better about not overeating, however not perfect as I prefer, and unlike when I was in my 20’s, the weight does not budge. When seeking God about this, hoping to have more stress to motivate me when I failed, as what happened when God dealt with me about smoking cessation, I am finding that he is not as concerned about my physical physique, or my overeating behavior as I am. He wants me to take some steps back and listen to what he has to say about the topic. Romans 14:17 “For the kingdom of God is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Spirit”. What he keeps showing me is that it is my choice. When I abstain because I have made the choice, not because of pressure from the holy spirit, then something happens, I feel pride in making a positive choice and I feel good about myself. This is righteousness. I also find that I am having grace to understand that there is not a time frame. I am not training myself to comply for a scheduled beauty pageant, and I’m not so fat that my health is in danger. This gives me peace. I am having to use the observe and correct tool daily… like my old youth pastor used to say, “if you’re not sure, just bake a cake”…. meaning there are times after I have a meal that I’m still feeling hunger, so instead of getting into fear about whether I should eat more or not, I sometimes just eat, using it as a tool to see how I feel afterwards and my objective is to learn from it. There are times when I feel immediately full after a bite, and I say “yep, that was not a hunger cue as I thought it was”. You see when a person has a distorted relationship with food, they have a distorted feeling of hunger. When I am stressed, I feel hungry. When I smell something yummy and food is offered to me, my lust for it kicks in and talks to my brain telling me I’m hungry. My goal is to eat only when my stomach is hungry, not my head, mind, lust, emotions, and to be satisfied with that. Father God, thank you for giving me grace that is sufficient for me. Thank you for giving me the ability to approach this area peacefully and for always helping me grow and to eventually succeed. Help me to not use this grace as an excuse to eat in a way that robs me of peace and joy. Please increase my understanding even more regarding this and to really hear you in these matters. Amen.